September Il Blue

Inspire.

2012-02-04T03:27:00.000+08:00

Hello! :D

So, there's like so many drafts here, I don't know where to start. But this post is dedicated to my experiences (again) I recently worked in a fair in Bangsar mall. It was definitely different, I tell you. Not the surroundings or how it looks, it's the ...atmosphere, I guess.

But of course, it's still a normal-everyday work. But I did meet a few interesting people along the way. Here's who:

The Good Husband
It was my lucky day, honestly. This man came by looking like the picky one but turned out he was okay (okay, not friendly :/) He was asking for a discount and all and picked a few more, and complimented the accessories. So I thought I'd also praised him for being such a nice husband to buy gifts (because so far, all the married guys I know -Daddy included- haven't bought any gifts for their wifes :/)

And he said, "I've been doing this for the past xx years."

And I just went AWWWWWWWWW :D

The Inspiring Lady
Right, so this lady :D She was a bit weird...and naggy, I had to admit. But she was really nice. She took a long time to decide but I chatted a lot with her. She's the first customer who complimented my sales skills (that I'm honest and gives off the you-can-trust-me vibe)

Oh, speaking of compliments, she said something: I see intelligence beyond you.

You can go to ten people and tell them this, and they might -wait, surely- laugh their asses off. It's that funny, even I laughed in my heart. Like wtf. It was nice of her really giving me some lessons in life. But intelligence...is not me.

The Enthusiastic Lady
She had a tomboy daughter and a son, I remembered. But she looked like an office marketing executive whatnot, and had a slight resemblance to an artistic aunt I have :D And she came to the counter, nice and polite and all positive vibe but all of a sudden, her enthusiasm just popped! She went crazy -- in a very ladylike way.

She went like, "Omg, I'm in love," for Lord knows how many times but it certainly make me feel good. I feel extremely happy and satisfied that somebody loves it so much. She did buy a few things too :D

And she listened to my opinions and my suggestions on how to jazz up outfits with accessories. I feel appreciated y'know :D Like finally, all my stylista knowledge is being used wisely.

The Stubborn Lady
I don't hate this lady, no. In fact, I like her (and her son too *winks*)

I talked and chatted to her like we were good friends. I said some stuffs (which come to think of it isn't as persuasive as it can get) but she was really nice, complimenting that I'm good at sales and all.

She didn't buy in the end, but it's alright, I'm happy to hear some compliments *nods*

So! With all the nice customers there would be bad ones.

Two,actually.

The White Woman with Huge Eyes and Gorgeous Lashes
Despite having that model eyes, she sucked. Seriously. Being a salesperson, service and attitude are very important and I was merely doing my job. And she scolded me, harshly stopping me from following her. I was dumbfounded, really, because it was my first time getting scolded :O

And I wished her drowned in the toilet bowl.

She gave me this feeling like I was accusing her of stealing whatnot.

The Fat White Woman Who Thinks She's Awesome Just Because She's White.
Sorry, I just have to. Two people scolded me on the same day. Two white people, to top it off. What, I'm not being racist but aren't you white people really nice and polite?

Why, no wonder so many people praised Asians are polite.

I didn't do anything. I got scarred so badly that I wasn't even near her. But she touched our accessories, which gave me a right to promote. And I just merely introduced her that it was our crystal earring and she just harshly told me to leave her alone like I had been pestering her for one hour.

That moment, I honestly thought that a salesperson somewhere in the mall had made them mad.

And I was really angry. I couldn't do anything though. So I shut up. But the more I kept it to myself, the more I thought that I should have defended myself, yelled at that fat bitch and told her she had no right to scold me just because she was a white lady. She had no right to yell at me. She wasn't any different. If anything, I should be the one to bully her because this was my country.

I mean, if those inconsiderate people look down on Myanmars simply because they don't belong in my country, doesn't that mean I can look down on those white people?

Seriously, be nice to salesperson. They had it bad too.

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All in all, it was fresh new experiences but if I had that sort of down luck, I really don't want to go through it again. It hurts even until now.

But! Because of some nice people, I discovered my inner talent of skills and also met a few new friends!

Alright then, to the next draft!

Crowned the Prince

2012-01-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

It's ...weird.

I'm feeling really weird. But surely, I'm not the only one going through this. I feel like I'm missing out something. And actually no, I'm not. I'm just delaying that sort of new experiences. Maybe it's just that wrong jealousy when I see people meeting people that we haven't seen in a while and announced it in Facebook.

But then I thought... I don't really wanna see her again.

So, let's hope IACT is foreign enough for these arrogant people...because you know, graphic design's pretty famous too :/

Lotsa lotsa love! Am currently working in a fair in Bangsar :)

Lovers Doll

2012-01-01T02:16:00.001+08:00

I can't wait to review this one! :D

So!

Title: Lovers Doll
Author:Mishima Kazuhiko
Genre:Romance, Yaoi, Shounen Ai, Fantasy
Rating: 9/10
Link:http://www.mangafox.com/manga/lovers_doll/

There are only two complaints: No.1) Lovers Doll isn't really correct in any way after reading this manga :/ No.2) IT'S TOO SHORT.

You heard me: It's fucking addictive. And I wish the mangaka can make it longer (you bet! I actually remembered it's her if I saw her name) because it's just that nice!

And so touching -- like OMG, if there's any yaoi manga that can make you cry, it will be this one.

And don't worry if you have phobia for dolls, cause you gonna fall for this really cute Shimeji :D He's the typical I-am-the-master boy, but he's actually very vulnerable and cute. And when you read it, you'd agree with me that the details of his costume is unbelievable and very creative too!

I can't emphasise more just how much I LOVE the storyline. I want it to be longer! Really, I have been reading only those darkness and mysteries and all, so this light-hearted with such romance feels nice. I hadn't expect it to be this...romantic :D

However, it seems that up till this point, I have actually realised one thing about gay manga: They like to insert the theme 'jealousy' and how that makes the guy happy when his lover is jealous. I'm not complaining, but why is every mangaka's minds think alike?

And spoiler, but this is probably the first manga where both actually gets to fuck each other (if that makes you wanna read it much more)

Verdict: MUST READ. Or you will regret for the rest of your life, as a yaoi fan. If you are not, read it too! There's no sex scene until the last Extra. You know it's good when the review's that short. It actually means no complaints :D

Happiness Project: Read Mangas

2011-12-31T01:15:00.003+08:00

So hey fellas!

So, Happiness Project! :D
I try not to code them because it's gonna be hell. I have tens of them. And if I start counting now I may have headache, but anyways, it works fine.

What's Happiness Project?
It is a list for myself where I do things that I have been wanting to do or even wanted to try. It's not a list that challenge you ( forcing yourself to bungee jump isn't bringing you any happiness) but rather it is a list that lets you remember that these are the things that you have always wanted to do. But because of time and reality, you hadn't been able to. Some of the activities can be simple such as searching for images but the result is the contentment and the fulfillment in life.

You should try too!
Rules:

You are allowed to add as many items as you want, just make sure they are possible
Do not write things that are impossible in life (eg. bungee jump is a no-no to me because I don't like heights)
You can't undo any of the written item, but you can manipulate it (eg I wanted to get a tattoo but after realizing how life-changing it can be, I changed it to draw a tattoo with an eyeliner pen)
You should feel happy when you write it down.

Okay, it's kind of strict but you can actually ignore it :D But then, it lost its purpose D:

Anyways, the first thing I have done!

Read Mangas

I told you it's that simple. In case you don't know, mangas are comics, but it's most likely being referred as Japanese comics. Do you know how long I hadn't hunt for a decent, non-yaoi manga?!

Year Two rolling in o.o

No joke. So I started searching every alphabet in the directory and bookmarked them in case when I want to read it. So I finally started it! But it was yaoi (hey, it is the first in the list that is marked completed) -- anyways, I still did accomplish. And ever since that first manga, I've continued to proceed on the other.

However, they sort of removed Heart no Kuni no Alice. WTF.

So, I also did a review on that first manga too (not really a review, just opinion) :Dekiru Otoko no Sodatekata

And I can't really say more about this because it's read mangas, didn't say anything like read at least ten mangas so the matter shall rest. The routine is there too, so I think it's alright. By the way, guess what's the second manga I'm reading.

Yaoi. Bloody yaoi because the rest are removed -_____- What the hell.

*Share your Happiness Project too ;) *

His Golden Hair

2011-12-27T23:14:00.001+08:00

His honey brown eyes.

And I'll be honest, I hadn't been feeling...jolly.
I'm feeling frustrated, sad, and everything negative.
And the scariest of all,

I have to grow up.

Right after I finished work and got into the car, the radio announced five more days until 2011 becomes a history. I was quiet, but deep inside, I gasped.

I feel like it's time to let go, whatever is inside of me.

And then the radio announced the same thing in my heart: get rid of all the garbage of 2011.

And I went wow.

I know, I know. I have always said how much I wanted to have freedom to drive around and go anywhere I'd like, live outside without my family (more determined than ever, trust me) but really, I'm scared. I'm not looking forward to 2012. It tells me that it's time to lock the child in me away.

It's time for me to grow up.

I can't embrace this properly. It's too scary. All those routine (going to school, sleeping on time, living with no worries) came to an end. That's it. No more repeat. I have to move on.

I have to move on.

Maybe it's the nausea and the headache and all the frustration building in me. I will be okay. I will be okay.

And I don't know why, times like this, I miss him a lot.

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And oh,

It really doesn’t matter ifyou don’t know whether you are straight or homosexual. This is life and that islove. And God is a man of humour. He lets you fall in love with all sorts ofpeople, man or woman, whether you like it or not. You don’t need to worry aboutit – after all, did any formal application form asks about your sexualpreference?

IU's You and I

2011-12-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

It's time to review IU's You and I :)

And wow, she's getting better. I know she always have the talent and is always lovable, but I didn't really like her until 'Good Day'.

Okay, so I shall ignore whatever the company's explanation is about the video. It's not like I came out with a plot either. It's confusing, really. And that guy looks like dreamy Song Joong Ki when he sleeps. Anyways, I love the setting. It reminds me of Howl's Moving Castle while the dance set seemed to be Show Luo's dance set as well. But then, again, such set is easily prepared. I love all the steampunk elements of it! Okay, so the MV.

Everything, I mean everything just feel like a fusion of Howl's Moving Castle and Disney :D I love the whimsical feel injected to it. The sound effects, the train, the screw (?), well, basically, all those rusty vintage colored elements. Very nicely done. And they have steam pumped out of nowhere which made it seem more vintage because it reminds me of an ol' train station in the Victorian Era :D

This, I can tell you, is one of the best sets I have seen in my life. For the life of me, I swear. I'm an artistic human and I fall in love with the song should the MV be beautiful and IU managed to capture my attention with both the MV and the song.

And honestly, I don't think the goose serves as any important character except ...you know, how those Disney princesses has a guardian animal? And this goose acts as one of that kind. They are just insignificant important side characters, if you get me. And well, as confusing as the plot is, what is for sure is that IU has a lover lying on bed in a deep comma. To me, it seems that she's travelling to the past, where they first met, but then the ending seemed kind of wrong, so it can only mean she travels to the future where her lover already woke up.

My question: why was he in comma? And why couldn't he remember you? I mean, it's the future, sure. The future where you are still his lover?

Unless you are travelling to your next life. Which seems possible.

But really, IU's innocent face in there and the part where she sort of wished goodbye in her heart in that time-travel machine, it just hit me. Really touching, because it was accompanied along with that voice of hers. It complimented each other perfectly.

And the ending is brilliant. I know all directors do that because it captured audience's heart, but since this is a MV ( a well done one), I have to say it's brilliant. The way the showcase a goose statue and how they focused on the time on the watch of the lover.

Did I mention the shop looks like Famous Amos as well? :D

The fashion in here is moderate. I notice IU always opt for simple outfits even in Good Day. Colour blocking or pastel colours,usually her outfits are clean and nothing extravaganza, simple if body-hugging (long sleeves and no baggy dresses in both Good Day and You and I, people), somehow showcasing herself. Which is a good thing.

Although I really love that blue silk dress she's wearing, I'm just not into that pink dress of hers.

And this time, for this single, I don't know about you guys but I see that her expressions vary more. Her aegyo is there, which gives me the feeling that she didn't do it on purpose; rather, it's her charm. But somehow at some second and some angle, her eyes can be mysteriously dark and bewitching. Especially before chorus, the please call out my name her voice is totally haunting, complimenting that eyes she have, desperate and dark as well as the line itself. Brilliant.

And the harmony just done something awesome to it. It's so touching. The violin and the whole orchestra feel to it. In fact, even the lyrics is amazing. The whole thing just fit actually, wow. It has the fantasy genre, something to do with peeping into the future and see who they look like. And when she grew up and the lover doesn't remember her, please call out her name.

Yes, it captured my heart. I just love this kind of stories.

Besides, once again, she's improved. Better than Good Day. I used to think the song somewhat sounded like Good Day, but no. This.Is.Better.

And the dance as well! This is the first single where I actually like her dance moves. And is more addicted to it. IU has never come across my mind as a good dancer, so it actually wow-ed me when she incorporated something more into dance choreography. It's amazing. Especially the whole choreography has 90% of what seemed like clock movement, and that is why I bloody say everything fits together. It's that awesome.

Rating: 10/10 Failproof favorite.

Enjoy!

Hunger. Thirst. Darkness.

2011-12-14T02:54:00.000+08:00

It's 2.37 AM when I'm saving this draft.

Kuroyuri bit his/her lips so that the blood can cure Hakusen.
Frau said something along the line It's better to die in your hands and Teito was so freaked out and afraid of losing him he became abusive.
Bastien said things to Frau so lovingly I find it suggestive.

THIS IS FUCKING YAOI. BUT WHY IS IT NOT YAOI?! YOU HAVE SUCH AWESOME YAOI PLOT AND THE AUTHOR CAN EVEN MANAGE SOME CHEESINESS I REALLY WONDER WHY YOU CAN'T MOVE ON.

I'm gonna tell you the love story behind this action packed anime.

Mikage wanted to protect Teito. He died and Teito mourned over his death, unable to get over it. Before Mikage died, he tried all means to reconcile with him. That time, Teito was at the Church and Frau slowly find himself deeply in love with Teito while being conscious about the existence of Mikage.

Mikage reached the Church and have to part with Teito not long after. He kept convincing Teito of how nice Frau was. I was more than sure he found out about Frau's love and gladly gave them his blessings.

After Mikage's death though, comes Hakuren, his doppleganger.

Dilemma is Teito's ability. So you know what happens.

I am fucking in love with Episode 17.

OMGTHESISTERSSUSPECTEDFRAUBEINGONEOFTHESEVENGHOSTS
ANDTHETHREEBISHOPSWENTLIKEO.O
ANDSOMEBODYHITFRAUSOTHATPORNBOOKCAMEOUT
ANDLABRADORWASSOCUTE
ANDCASTORSHOWEDALOTOFPERSONALITY
ANDEVENHITFRAUSEVERALTIMESINTHEEPISODE

You know what? I AM FUCKING IN LOVE WITH THIS DAMN ANIME I'M GONNA SPAZZ ABOUT THE DETAILS AFTER FINISHING IT.WATCH ME.

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*update*

JANGJANG! I found another unique ability that I possess: I'm really good at identifying a person's voice. I just wondered Teito sounded like somebody and then I realised it's Wolfram. Did I check Wiki? Yes I did and turned out I was super correct (JANGJANG). Mitsuki Saiga is his name and even voice-acted Shaolee in Black Cat (the rest are animes I don't watch, so don't care) and despite the rather young characters that he voice-acted, he's 38 :O WAIT, A FEMALE!? BUT--

You should smile.

2011-12-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

Do me a favour, will you?Smile for me

Frau is so dreamy!~
Unfortunately, he said it to the wrong person.
No, I am not jealous (fine, slightly) but to say it to Teito?
Pardon me everyone for being so rude but let me correct you the exact genre of this anime: yaoi. That's the word, you heard me well, yaoi.

Damn, Frau, you should say it to me D:

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Anyways, I finally get to start my *drum rolls*:

HAPPINESS PROJECT

Yes, it's a rather lame name, but why the fancy name when the content is super awesome!?
Ahem, well. So, the Happiness project is a project where I do things that I like but never get the chance to do it (reasons: exam, shyness, me.)

It's not in order and those things-to-do are simple for some of them, so I have accomplished some of them already! :D

Stay tuned as I like to explain it one-by-one.

Try Try Try

2011-12-11T17:28:00.001+08:00

I hate my life.

Okay, I'm kidding.

I'm not being stupid or trying to make anybody to yell WTF, but really, I wish I can be just comfortable with what I'm doing and be less shy.

Shy doesn't really define me, I know, but that's just what happens.

I'm going to try again, of course.

Press Start :)

I can't film videos to make reviews? It's okay, I can always blog about it. I can start again as New Year's resolution.

I can't sing because my voice is a bitch? Try it again.

Makeup's a bitch? I can always try.

Try, try, try.

That is what brings us to success.

Ukiss's Tick Tack

2011-12-11T17:24:00.001+08:00

So, to enhance my career in blogging (I'm just kidding) I'm gonna update and write what I think about the latest music videos (which you can call it review, but I'm not a professional)

Let's start with Ukiss's Japan Debut single, Tick tack.

I just can't further emphasize how much Ukiss has come. I change from a normal fan to their (not so hardcore yet ) Kissme. They've become more and more amazing. Their singles are getting more mature and grown up with an air of wildness.

At first, I misheard the line 'to lie' as tonight. In fact, many people has misinterpreted that as well since the way they said it did sound like tonight, and since it makes sense, nobody did question.

It's kind of funny because Ukiss, to me, is an obvious group which suffers from identity crisis. They start from 'I hate you girl' to 'Let's party, girl and never see the day' sort of stuff and it goes back to expressing their hatred to bad girls. It's like a cycle. I really wonder why girls really like them that much back then since they keep singing so much about girls breaking their hearts by two-timing and making us seem like it's girls that have been letting boys down. No sexism here, though.

But it's until Neverland that I start spazzing over them. I'm a sucker for eyeliner guys and dark background with the haunting vocal of a dreamy man in a song, so yeah, that's when I really love Kevin. Only Kevin. But then this video surfaced and I was like, 'Oh yeah, Ukiss.'

This should be Ukiss's identity from here on.

The song, the way I see fit, is about a man telling lies to a girl because he knows he can't be together with her any longer. And that he will be loving her for the night before they part. Forever, but not with her. My favorite part of the song is SooHyun's Tonight. I'm always amazed by his voice as it improved from time to time. I don't like the rap though. It's so out of place and somehow sounded too rushed. It also confuses me.

Right now, I’m only being nice
After making you go through
Those difficult days
My pride
Hasn’t been hurt yet
You don’t know anything
I’m deceiving you

Um, what?
But I shall disregard that, because many people are as confused as I am :/ But the more I look at the lyrics, the more I am convinced this guy has some magical power whatnot. I mean, to lie I shall be singing for you through the night ? How dreamy and mysterious is that?

I digress.

All in all, it's another normal story where he has to leave this girl so that he won't hurt her any worse. It always hurt more to know that your lover can't love you rather than he doesn't love you anymore. The beat of the song, I'm a sucker for this type. It started with to lie I shall be here and it gives me the feeling when I am watching a drama. It starts off with a sentence that you will only know why after watching the rest of the drama. And the rhythm, the melody compliments the sorrow, the pain of a man who has to leave his lover.

The video, too, is so awesome! But when I read the lyrics, I kind of hoping a story plot in it. It would be much more interesting, you know. Maybe the scene of a vampire caressing his lover's face, as he painfully and hesitantly say goodbye to her. Kevin would be suitable for this role! (sorry, fangirling at the moment -- but that would make an awesome fanfiction o.o) Anyway, the faces of these charming people and their charismatic dance is good enough.

The set is nothing amazing, to be honest (I just wonder if it's the same set in Arashi's Monster) but I love the mixture of the brown and the grey colour as it sets off a rather vintage and dark atmosphere. The clock, compliments their title song, Tick Tack. I always have this thing for the clock, too :D The beginning of the video is very creative. I like how their Ukiss's S-es move according to the beat of Kevin's part as well as the tick tock tick tock.

And I'm starting to realise that AJ really likes to do hand gestures. A very gentleman-in-dilemma kind, but hey, he's hot, so why bother? And SooHyun too! He really likes to smile when he sings. So dreamy! ;D I'm getting bored of DongHo already, honestly. He always gives smirk and a irregular sizes of eyes thing. Uh...
Hoon suddenly looks better o.o Eyeliner? Ah, yes, Eli! I'm not a fan of his, really, but this hairstyle really suit him :)

And why?! Why lip rubbing again? Honestly...

The dance? Needless to say, hot! The way they tilted their head and moved like the clock, that totally hit me. And in their Neverland, we see (as Martina said) their sync in their dance moves which is rather emotionally angry and aggressive, but somehow, this one's choreography is much more neater. They are like, in sync, move just right in time 100% It's probably because of their dance moves are more to the robotic dance, but it's definitely something when they can do that so smoothly.

Nearing the end of chorus, you see Kevin doing some moves that resembles a bit of martial arts. Did you see how they move?! I mean, of course the whole chorus, the dance moves are awesome awesome and awesome. But that part really is the best.

So, rating : 9/10

Enjoy!

Namja Namja Namja

2011-12-10T19:05:00.001+08:00

So, you guys know I'm live for a romance. Always. (But I'm not the type who dress and live for boys, rest assured.)

I mean, it's post-SPM. And it's my blog and I'm bored, so I wanted to share this tag I did in Facebook :)

My Kind Of Guy
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Yes, it will be awesome...but if I really like him, everything else doesn't matter

2. Smart?
Yes, but not in academic terms.

3. Preferred age?
Age is just a matter of integers, but I hate negatives :/

4. Preferred height?
Tall boys, like 180 cm! Somebody said the boy got to surpass my gay best friend (:

5. How about sense of humor?
Yes , laughter is good for relationships.

6. How about piercings?
Ear piercing is hot on a guy, but just that all.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Yes, proves that he loves me.

8. Pink hair?
Ugh, no. I'm not imagining myself to be that punk couple in Amazing Race.

9. Mushy or no?
Mushy guys will end up like Alviss Kong. R.I.P dude.

10. Thin or fat?
Somewhere in the middle. Perfect teddy bear! :D

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
White, I have this obsession for fair guys.

12. Long hair or short hair?
Short hair is in...but long hair is okay...just not as long as mine.

13. Plastic or metal?
Wha-at? OMG...

14. Smells good?
You wouldn't want to be with a guy with bad odour, right?

15. Smoker?
It's hot to me...but no. I don't want to get both ourselves into this drama about a guy with lung cancer in a hospital.

16. Drinker?
Not too much.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
May-be.

18. Muscular?
Not too muscular. It's scary.

19. Plays piano?
OMG, that will be damn romantic! :D

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Yes, yes yes.

21. Plays violin?
Yes, yes yes.

22. Sings very well?
That would be really romantically lovely, but it will stay as an option.

23. Vain?
Haha, yes. Then we can have a battle of who's vainer.

24. With glasses?
Doesn't matter. Nerds are the new sexy.

25. With braces?
Not sure :/

26. Shy type?
Shy is boring. I want him to be loud and outgoing, funny and lame :D

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Good boy...but rebel is hot too ;p

28. Active or passive?
A little bit of both, if you're talking about the straight thing.

29. Tight or bomb?
Now, o0o

30. Singer or dancer?
Singer...I can't dance

31. Stunner?
Stunner as in he stuns everyone, yes. Stunner as in action stunts sort of man, yes.

32. Hiphop?
Ew, I don't want him to go wave his hand and like, "Yo, yo, let me tell ya one thing girl. I *beatbox* love you-you-you." -_____________-

33. Earrings
Yes. Like I said, it's hot.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
I'm seeking a lifetime romance, not going out and fooling around.

35. Dimples?
Optional, not everyone look cute with dimples... Wait, I take back my word.

36. Bookworm
No, I am quite afraid he will wait for me to go to the library on Valentine's Day and he will blabber some Biology terms which is actually, surprisingly 'I love you.' o.o

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Yes, romantic!

38. Playful?
Yeah, but let's not be too lala to go gaga.

39. Flirt?
With me, yes please. Others, break up please.

40. Poem writer?
Ooh, no. He may those people from the underground cafe for emos, clicking his fingers o.o

41. Serious?
Sometimes.

42. Campus crush?
Ah-ha, that will be so-so Taiwanese-dramatic. Yes please!

43. Painter?
No, not so keen on it.

44. Religious?
Why not? But not TOO religious. It will be quite annoying.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Acceptable, but if he ends up like somebody I know...

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
KyuHun is both and I find him very hot/charming/romantic/omgshootmehesoperfect.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Alaa, let's not be too picky.

48. Loyal or faithful?
Both, because I know I will be both too.

49. Good kisser?
*blush*

50. Loves children?

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So, yeah. I think I'm a pretty interesting person?
Oh yeah, confession tag! ... Hm.

Dekiru Otoko no Sodatekata

2011-12-10T17:45:00.001+08:00

Hi people! :)
Remember how I used to post about mangas that I read and talked about it?
I'm doing it again (and if I like, I might delete all those posts and read again and review again :D )

Anyway, here is this to start with!

Title: Dekiru Otoko no Sodatekata
Author: Yamato Nase
Genre: Yaoi, Smut, Romance
Rating: 5/10
Link:http://www.mangafox.com/manga/dekiru_otoko_no_sodatekata/

Skip it if you don't like yaoi. And if you don't want to be scarred, don't read it either. I'm sure I told you guys why I actually enjoy the sex scenes in Junjou Romantica (they don't show that, enough said) and this manga is too...revealing. Explicit content, yes.

And suddenly, I'm so proud to announce that Junjou Romantica isn't as perverted as everyone thought. Since this manga is about a farmer boy (a country bumpkin) falling in love with a businessman when he went to sign a contract with his family for vegetable supplies, the couple were rather ... irritatingly weird. I was okay with substituting your lover as a cucumber OR tomato instead of honey and baby, but when we actually progress to the extra part, I seriously really want to puke. Anyone has any idea what is cucumber and two tomatoes?

And there is a reason why I actually banned Minami Haruka's works (all of them). Too explicit, obvious stereotypes and is rather disgraceful to all gays in the world. I actually have to skip all the sex scene pages when honestly, those parts are the most important parts for me to like a yaoi (minus Shungiku Nakamura sensei's, her humour is enough to compensate) if I'm first exposed to the mangaka's works (now I totally skip all Minami Haruka's works)

Why did I say that when it's completely irrelevant to this manga? Well, because the truth is, the innocent me just forced me to skip every sex scene because Jojobear couldn't stand dicks.

Did I finish everything? You bet. Why? Because it's too cute. Really, very cute. I yelled, "No!" when it is too explicit because it's such a shame to skip this cute manga. But I read the discussion and they were all saying it was a nice manga, and that kept me going.

There's another turn off in this manga as well. The cuteness compensated well, because I'm not a fan of this mangaka's style of drawing. It's not that modern, and is not unique enough. Like Shungiku Nakamura-sensei or maybe Takanaga Hinako-sensei, their style are really distinguished. Even Minami Haruka. And I have to constantly remind myself that one character in this manga is actually a guy, and not a girl.

Ah, almost forgot: it has a slight resemblance to Junjou Romantica, what with the dominant seme and living together.

Verdict: Give it a try for the sake of its cuteness and rather interesting storyline. Skip the sex scenes if you can't stand cucumber and two tomatoes like me.

Press Start

2011-12-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

Total wtf.

I am impressed with the skin, just needed tabs.
& guess what?

Google's a bitch. HTML's a bitch. Blogger's a bitch.
WTF.

GoodBye

2011-12-09T16:34:00.001+08:00

Google tells me to fly to Japan to get manga art supplies.

I am so bloody screwed. But well, there are other sources suggesting some other accessible supplies, but those better ones are all in Japan. And if I really want to buy it online, might be a hard one because very little Japanese understands English, after all.

No hard feelings :/ I have a little Japanese me in heart.

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Anyways, got nothing much to say today! I'm gonna change my ol' blog skin. It's just getting so dull and brown you know.

I feel so sad D:

Love Line

2011-12-08T16:46:00.001+08:00

Did you hear the intro of the piano?
So dreamy and mysterious and dark and ... romantic :D
And his voice is so mature I can't believe he's actually forteen :o
However, his own way of singing Paparazzi is a bit off rhythm to me :/ I do like the way he sings the chorus :D And also the verses, there's the adrenaline injected, you know. Like it happens in this French action movie? :p Also, you can hear that he stressed his voice a lot if you listen closely. I don't really encourage that honestly :/

BUT,
WHY IS HE FOURTEEN YEARS OLD?!

I am officially a noona.

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So, Rebecca Black's The Person of Interest. Anybody watched it?

THIS VIDEO SU--
Wait, is that Bieber?
Oh wow, somebody's fantasizing.

Anyway, this video is awful. The song as well. I may be a hater honestly, but hey I used to be a Kara hater and now I start to like them a bit more. So there is a reason why I can be a hater towards Rebecca Black.

When you smile, I like that, bla bla bla, I like that. I like that, I like that.
Wtfuck?

And sorry, I just think she doesn't look that pretty as the last time I gave her the credits for :/ And she still can't act a bit more... natural. Having too much fun dancing and wait a minute, Person of Interest? Uh, yeah. That sounds kind of scientific to me.

However, I think the song generally has a nice rhythm, and if given to a better singer (a worthy one as well) I think it's gonna be a hit song. Why couldn't it be Rebecca Black? Because it's yet again another song with autotune. She just gives me this feeling that she wants to be famous for anything while just not trying hard to improve her voice. I mean, God, did you listen to the chorus? If I sing that part, I don't even need it to be autotuned. Okay, maybe not. But still.

And the boy's looking really awkward.

Okay, maybe I'm hating too much and being a little unfair to her.

Her voice did improve ever since Friday, but just that.And she is a pretty good dancer with really nice gestures. And I didn't search her up honestly, it popped up on the Featured page and I was like, "Hey, let's see if she's improved?"

So?
Bleh.

Americans are so supportive, ain't they? I wanted to say, if she can't do it, just tell her she can't. But then, everyone has a right to do things they like and maybe someday, they might soar.

Let's hope so.

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And lastly,

GOD FRAU WHY ARE YOU A BISHOP?!

Curse of the Royal Harem

2011-12-06T20:17:00.001+08:00

Ever since Forensic Heroes 3 finished, I continue with this one.

I love this, at the same time, I hate it.
It's sort of a love and hate relationship between me and this drama.

Why do I hate it?

Good people becomes bad, and bad becomes good. And the good people died in the end. While the bad lived long enough. I hate it. And that empress, just kept bringing trouble to her stepson even though he treated her well.

I like happy endings, no drama, happily ever after, something light and fun to watch. I just don't like evil. And funnily enough, evil was the thing that kept me going and urge me to finish the whole thing. Just so I can see how the empress fall and how the country is restored in peace.

And that is why I totally hate the drama (and love it all the while) because in the end, Yuen Yuen didn't live. And the empress didn't know her faults. Cheng Yu was killed (although I hate her, but her love for the emperor was really touching. She just got influenced badly) and the good thing is that servant of empress committed suicide because that just meant one good value in the drama (and thank God!)

And...the emperor abandoned Niuhuru Yee Lan.

WTF.

Niuhuru Yee Lan was an evil empress in the end.

DOUBLE WTF.

Verdict: Watch it, and be agonized. The world had gone wrong in the beginning after all.

Maybe I'm Blind

2011-12-05T18:03:00.001+08:00

But you're definitely there.

SPM's over.
SPM's over.
SPM's over.
Why is it not capital letter? Because it just didn't mean that much after all these :/ But:

SPM'S OVER!

It's kind of unbelievable isn't it?
I actually have this day.
It feels like a step of growing up :D

So, to celebrate!
*takes off clothes and dance half-nakedly*

Okay, super kidding! It's gonna be another random post, as I don't wanna be mushy and all. So, videos!

TRAX - Blind
I'm not a fan of JungMo's new hair, and that beat in the middle was pretty left out :/ But anyway.
The verses of the song isn't that nice compared to the chorus. I mean, if you pause and listen to each part separately, they don't seem to belong in the same song.

Surprisingly, when you listen the whole song, it does o.o

And the video is awesome! Not just because of KyuHyun (OMG How did you know?) but Victoria as well. She acted well. I mean, you see the pain and the tears, while KyuHyun's a bit...flat :/ I still love him though. I like the whole scene, the story portrayed in the video. It's not different, it's just something that I like. First it's serene, and as it progressed, becomes dull and suffocating.

But thank God! No teddy bears harmed ;)

This is one of the dance videos for The Boys Cover Competition. I watched this before they were announced the winner, and I was like, "You are winning."

The dance was really awesome alright. There's a bit off sync here and there but it was really good. The way they just moved so swiftly is awesome :o I also love the professional touch implemented in the video. I just like something more artistic.

The story is kind of lame in a way, but it's really nice to see someone to put in more effort for originality. They deserve to be the winner :D

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Okay, so lately.
SPM's over so I have been thinking what I wanted to do later in life. College of course. But I'm stuck with so many courses. Once I decided that, I begin to wonder who I'm going to be in the future. I have been considering freelancing. It's something that I might want to try in the future. But now I still have to consider what kind of design I'm doing.

Are you considering freelancing too? Check this out!

PROS
1. Choose When You Work
When you don’t have to come into an office each day, you can really be in control of your time. You get to choose when you work. You’re working for yourself, after all. Are you a morning person that wants to stop working at lunchtime? That’s cool. Or are you a night owl that loves to sleep in? Go for it. As long as you get the work done, that’s all that matters. When you freelance, you get to choose when you work. Or at least be more flexible with your schedule (with the few exceptions that involve time-sensitive clients).

2. Choose Where You Work
Since you’re not reporting to a stationary office every day, you can choose where you do your freelancing work. Whether it’s at home, at various cafes throughout the cities, or traveling—or even moving—to different cities, it doesn’t matter. Like with being in control of your time, as long as you get the work done then it doesn’t matter where you’re located. When you freelance, you get to choose where you work. Or again, at least be more flexible with your location (if you have location-sensitive clients).

3. Choose What You Work On
The biggest drawback of working for a company or firm is you usually don’t get to choose what projects you work on. You design based on what clients are brought to you. But when you are a freelancer, you find your own clients. Thus, you get to choose what you work on. Notice the pattern? Freelancing is about choice – freedom.

4. Potentially Make More Money
If you have the drive in you, you can stand to make more money freelancing. You’re not throttled by working for someone else. You can take on more clients or more projects than if you were working for a company or firm. And more quality work equals making more money.'

5. Fire Bad Clients
Similar to #3, if you get stuck with a bad client while working for someone else, you either suck it up or quit your job. And there goes all of your work and income. But with freelancing, each client is a separate source of income. So if you come across a bad client, you can freely fire them. Why waste your precious days working on something that’s annoying you? Drop that client like a bad habit.

CONS
1. Incoming Work Isn’t Guaranteed
At a company or firm, assuming it doesn’t go out of business, you’re pretty much guaranteed work. You come in, there is always work for you to do, and you’ll never be at a shortage. As a freelancer, since you’re finding your own work, it’s never guaranteed. Sometimes opportunities can be plentiful, and other times there could be less.

2. Inconsistent Monthly Income
With inconsistent incoming work comes inconsistent monthly income. Some months you can be rolling in a steady stream of quality work. Other months your clients might not need you, or you don’t find enough work. And your income suffers as a result

3. Potentially Make Less Money
A continuation of #2. If you aren’t finding quality clients, you could potentially make less money than if you were at a company or firm. Ditto if you’re lazy. If you aren’t a self-motivating type and need someone else to kick you in the butt, then with freelancing you could potentially be making less money than at a company or firm.

4. You Have to Find New Work On Your Own
With freelancing, you don’t just spend time creating, you also need to spend time finding new clients and work. At a company or firm, the incoming work is taken care of for you. You just need to design and that’s it. (However, if you absolutely hate finding clients but still want to freelance, one remedy is partnering with someone that can find work for you – a designer manager of sorts.)

5. You Have to Do Your Own Accounting
Similar to #4. At a company or firm, you don’t need to worry about accounting. You design, you get paid, you pay yearly taxes, and that’s it. Not so with freelancing – since you are your own company, you need to handle your own accounting. (Again, if you hate accounting then you can use software to make it easier or hire/outsource to someone that can do it.)

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Freedom means...more animes!
The DVD player in my parents' room is so retarded. I can't play Pandora Hearts not Sailormoon, so I heartbroken-ly tore my neatly wrapped new anime.

07 GHOST

It is fucking addictive. I love Pandora Hearts equally, but I think I'd be more in love with 07 Ghost because of the equally provided mystery and action and a massive exposure to hot guys. Like, really hot guys. THE FATHERS ARE HOT LIKE OMG WTF.

Teito and Mikage.

That blonde dude is Frau! SUPER HOT. And he's a bishop -.-

WHO CARES MAN?!

And Labrador, that cute guy with purple hair.

He looked so cute he should be short, but he towers even Mikage :/

Castor too!

D: You have no idea how long it has been since I last cried for an anime.

If the author is willing to, this can make a super good yaoi manga :/

Too many mushy (what I would call suggestive) words and motions.

NOSEBLEEDING.

SEX DEVIL GOD.

Hot and dangerous.

And he's a bishop wtf.

OKAY OMG FRAU Y U SO PERFECT?!

Bye! :) Hello freedom!

The Odd Feeling

2011-12-04T02:38:00.001+08:00

I used to be hot.

...

Now I'm hotter than ever! ;D

Hello people, this is me with permanent curls.

And sister has a flat fringe. Looks like a doll, and her eight year old self.

At least, nobody's gonna say that she's older than me ;p

I know, it's like 2.43 am, but I felt asleep a while ago.
I'm at Taiping!

So currently now at my aunt's place with Internet access so making use of it :D

O.M.G.

Did you see Injuuin's contrasting colour? So hot.

And then only I focused on Usagi. Sorry, but Injuuin is leading now.

As for Misaki, lucky bitch.

My recent Tumblr update got reblogged by this guy in a minute. And his skin is awesome, so I decided to keep it :D

It's true. I'm grumpy. I just woke up because I was so tired and then when I was here, Junjou is updated and I was squealing and jumping around :D

But anyway, I'm gonna sleep after finishing. Nights!

Call It What You Want

2011-12-01T21:42:00.001+08:00

Guys, I know some of you aren't here anymore, and even when this is posted, I think I'm still talking to myself. However, if anybody did pass by or by any miracle you guys did come back and saw this post, please. Read it.

It's not really a big deal though. It's just that I'm stuck.

I'm always being seen as a person who knows what she wants and has decided what career to take right after she ends high school. But it turns out I have been wrong. Really wrong.

No, my passion for art shall never end. Just the way I won't stop loving music, won't stop loving anime, won't stop loving Sailormoon. It's just that I hadn't been realistic enough.

Multimedia Design isn't as glamorous as it seemed to me. All I recognised from the term is similar to advertising, but you have animation too. You would be there when there's photography of a model too. You would be there when a director's filming. You would be there to give comments.

But no, I'm so fucking wrong.

Everything's about...computer. HTML, coding, computer. And at that point, it doesn't matter whether or not if you know how to draw. Nobody's gonna care. They just want your creativity.

And not just that. I would be stuck in office forever, not being able to strive for higher positions. As talented as I am, Diploma is going to hold me back.

It's not about the Diploma thing, too. If I want to pursue Degree, my mother wouldn't mind. I have complete support. But I'm just stuck.

I'd never imagine the day I'd consider management and business, have you?

I mean, you meet people everyday. And through business, it can still mean sales and that means interacting with lots of person.

...

WAIT,

Guys?

I think I found my dream :)

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No, I'm not taking business. And I mean it, it just crossed my mine. It made sense. Like typing halfway, and whoosh, it tells me I don't need to be stuck. I can help myself. So I don't need your advice. But I'd still love to hear from you!

Okay, this sounds insincere?

Remembering You//Awkward.

2011-11-29T18:33:00.001+08:00

Hello people rawr!
Okay, humour isn't working.
Anyways,

Chemistry?

Awesome.

Pssh, honestly, who am I lying?

Paper 3 is hard. But like I care. Peace.

So!

I'm gonna do a confession tag soon.
Copycat indeed, but hey, it's not like somebody copyrighted it, so :p

I've got one more paper to go. Next week. Omg, the feeling is so unreal.

It's like, everytime I check my fingernails and thinking they are too long and have to be cut, I just realise I don't have that obligation anymore.
Everytime I think of my ponytail being pulled back reluctantly and oily fringe, I realise I don't need to do it as often as this ...anymore.
Everytime I think of weekends as dreadful because I need to iron my uniform, I remember this ugly blue and white shall be left behind.
Everytime I clean up the mess of my homework and some papers, I kept thinking some of them shall be kept for further reference, and I remember that when I go to college, this irrelevant topic will not be repeated.

I hate to say this...but I'm gonna miss this awkward dullness :)

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Um, this is awkward to say...but hey, life's good.

As in I can remember and laugh at it with some proper sense of humour.
I read the horoscope: Taurus man. And I was so excited to meet one and date one with all the characteristics (and by here I want to make a confession: I'm attracted to dominant boys - too much Junjou - and guys who wear V-neck shirts are exceptionally hot. And yes, I'm crazy ) but then by evening when I thought of Taurus man, I remembered someone with this characteristics.

Just to double confirm, I checked the birthday and went W.T.F

And laughed.

I laughed.

Maybe it isn't that bad. I did share it with my friends this morning.

But fuck, what am I hoping for?

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My mom just combed my hair since my hair was wet and she was combing Debbie's hair.
I went to her and went like, "Auntie, comb my hair too."
And she was nagging and combing and nagging and combing

I wouldn't say that I feel like a kid again, but it's so comfortably cute :D

So! I'll prepare a list of confession, a list of things I want to buy, and a list of to-do starting now.
Fashion Edition coming soon!
Till' then!

Circle the Drain

2011-11-27T20:08:00.001+08:00

The Fashion Edition

;)

I just want to glam up this post. But I probably need a new skin. This is so brown it's not glamorous. Sometimes, we have to learn to let go. Your hair, your blog skin etc.

Anyways, let's start the fashion edition.

Am so in love with strappy studded heels lately. I have always been a fan of ankle boots (and for too long, as well) and though it never seems to fade, this little baby design is joining in. So I went searching for the images of it...because I like to collect pictures of pretty designs to keep in my folders so when I draw something that has certain theme and that particular thing reminds me of this design, I don't need to Google for it. So!

Found some other fashion shoes as well. Saw the purple heels? That's by Sergio Rossi which I also discovered in Female magazine and since then I'm a fan of this brand :D I can't emphasize more on how much these studded heels (or studs alone) always inspire me to write something badass because the it's...rocker. The theme of it is that...rocker.

But some studded heels are glamorous too. Because instead of studs, it is studded with diamante perhaps? Anyway, let's move on.

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Ann Ward, one of ANTM's winner is my favourite! I've spent a lot of time searching images yesterday so that includes Ann Ward since she appeared in my Facebook :/

I like this one a lot. It has a laidback feel to it :)

Also some BTS snapshots :)

On a recent magazine photoshoot. I forgotten the name.

Even though she's my favourite, I also have other favourites in the cycle, that includes...Rhianna and Lexie. To me, Ann has too large eyes that sometimes, I would take it as her being too fierce or too scared. Sometimes, I am so surprised she actually managed to soften them. She's not exactly as pretty as Rhianna, but not all models are pretty, so that's that.

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It's China Fashion Week!
And I'm proud to say (I'm still a Chinese after all ;) ) it's really good.

This is the presented in the White Collar event, which I think it suggest the bridal section of China Fashion Week? But this one is gorgeous!

And the Cosmetic Section

This few are gorgeous. Futuristic yet traditional.

Some of them may not be from this year's Fashion Week, but they are equally gorgeous.

The next part is the lingerie section. It's interesting to see because it has a warrior theme to it :) Some of these are my favourites.

And now, The Tibet theme by GuoPei?

This designer is pretty successful this year.

So, I would like to say that it's much more interesting to see China's very own Fashion Week. It's different not from the aspect of lighting or the atmosphere or the obvious that more Asian models are chosen, but it's the design and style itself.

I don't think I've seen a more dramatic make up from the western countries. Here in China, I love to see colours of extravagance being presented. It reminds me of Mulan :D And even, the Chinese culture back then in various dynasties. You know, fair skin and red lips and all.

And you saw the Tibet theme. It's much more interesting this way. Designers from China design with a theme of the Chinese culture. It tells a story, a history, something from the past. I am fascinated by the fashion in ancient China, too, believe it or not. It's...colourful.

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Yes, this lovely girl beside sexy Adam Levine is Russian model Anne Vyalitsyna (correct spelling? :/), his girlfriend. They look so good together :D

Although I have to say, as a swimsuit sexy model, she works fine for this editorial one. Her skin is not my favourite part about her though :/

Aw! This dress and that studded jacket = gorgeous!

Both these dresses up there are Christian Darling(?) So lovely and high fashion :D If you give it to me, I'd wear it...and look ugly :/

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DIOR TIME!
I'm Googling for this year's Dior Runway makeup, but instead I've got a few of the previous years' ad campaign. Featuring Kate Moss and some other gorgeous people. Gotta say, the picture's timeless!

Everything's Dior and I'm quite lazy to state which is which, so :p But they are all gorgeous, you have to say. They are not...boring.

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And lastly, Lady Gaga!

It was for Elle's magazine, and I think it just suits her well. Her outfits have been too extravagant and over-the-top that even these chic-but-not-normal-people-would-wear-it look stylish on her.

She makes a good model, too, actually. With Gaga style ;D

Alright, hope to see you next time xo (Usually written in magazine this way :/)

Studded.

2011-11-27T18:59:00.001+08:00

I love heels. It tells me that reality is painful shit.

Hello guys!

Went to Summit today because cousin wanted to insert some games into his ol' PSP. Anyways, I saw tiny little 3D Smurfs! RM6 per one and there's twelve of them. I certainly don't mind splurging on this one :D I mean, I spend money and think like a middle-class. That's probably never gonna change :/ But they look a bit old and less cute. I'm still thinking, because the plush Smurfs is much, much cuter.

And while I was in the game store, saw Kwan Loon and gang buying XBox? I think so.

Xtreme Legends came out! I so want it! Why, I don't know who that girl is, but I know there's a new character: Guo Jia. That dude went like, "There's a new dude in there."

And I smiled proudly: "Of course." I'm a KOEI hardcore fan.

And I finally had the guts and asked about that Final Fantasy's Collector Edition. RM230 wtf o.o Or was it RM320? Either way, I'm broke. Not to say I'm broke, actually. Since my empress Mommy just won't give me the green light to buy cosplay costume, I literally have a sum of money in my bank. Well, enough to survive next years's Chinese New Year. So that means I don't need to work I still can buy cute clothes and shoes and maybe a game since my Dad won't buy me one.

I need to get a job, needless to say.

My mom's so nice lately! She agreed to help me purchase those Smurfs and I may return it when somebody returned me my money. Also, she even agreed to buy (yes, treat, not lend) Xtreme Legends for me. But of course, I'm a nice daughter. I refuse to. I just need to get a job. Those two games can't run away from my hand.

I'm getting curls people!

Also dyeing my hair after SPM. I want to play it safe. After all, the face like mine, I have to be careful and not be so stupid to go for platinum blonde. I do want to go red, though. But the bright red like Hayley Williams probably would make me worse.

Thankfully! I read female magazine some day during tea time (think it's October issue?) and they taught us how to get red that suits us. So I have a warm undertone, auburn would suit me. So I'm going auburn.

I even did research on what bangs that suit me :D I want to get like thin, blunt bangs, but I need to make it slightly side-swept. I'm not sure if my face is round or square but the side swept bangs look good on both. Thank God.

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Let's see. Oh yes, saw a pair of nice calf boots for RM20. And when I went back for it, some bloody human took it and I went gasping. Like so fast. And turned out to be this woman who got it for her daughter. her daughter who is around 10 years old, maybe. And I went like whatthefuck. But then, there's only one size left, so I left. But that shop has lotsa awesome ankle boots I'm gonna get one!

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I will still make it to Comic Fiesta. Not as anybody, not even Nana, but I'd be punk enough.

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I'm so in love with strappy studded heels! It inspired me to write a scene in the collab project I have with Leena. But that's gonna be in another post. Second post in a day, finally?

See you later ;)

Have to Hold On Tighter

2011-11-26T16:06:00.001+08:00

Two more weeks to go!

And I've snapped some nice pictures. Surprisingly, I'm being rather productive. I don't know in which way, but I feel so. Have so many things to share, but I don't remember any. Omg, SPM is coming to an end, my high school life has already ended.

I never think I would say this, but here comes a new insecurity. God, I have to begin to be more independent. But, life will be better. I'm looking forward to it.

Anyways, I just read that horoscope book that I really love. I'm gonna pass it down to my next few generations and make sure they worship it. It's just so awesome, you know. So damn accurate. Maybe it isn't true for Libra having a nice and graceful looks (however, Kate Winslet is gorgeous) but the rest are so true. Maybe not 100% true, but almost. Close.

I mean, check out the Libran Kid section. So true. I tend to get upset when people judge me by my looks, but when I am genuinely loved, I live as a person with joy and delight.

I think I'm gonna start out my posting videos about Horoscope with this baby book! :D But well, I need confidence.

I started to clear up my desks and my cupboards and anything that has things to do with academic books. All the previous test papers, trial papers, notes, sticky notes have all been stuffed into not one, but two plastic bags! I'm ready to recycle them! (God would be so happy to see that I still make good use of these crap HAH) Now all I'm left with is two files of Accounts, one file of Chemistry and other books of Chemistry. Can you believe! I have extra spaces and files to store my drawings now! Sweet!

I actually, I don't really know what to say. I just got fatter. I got some funny things going on in life. I got more jokes with my friend. I retold the jokes I had. We seemed to reminisce. Hm.

Oh yes, I'm jealous again.

...I certainly need to be famous to ease the uneasiness in me.

Ah, yes. Leena used to ask me if I think I'm ever gonna be famous. I answered in a rather unsure way, "Yeah. If I keep doing things that I like with passion, maybe I will."

And she's fascinated.

I'm shocked.

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Okay, anyways, my papers.

Moral was alright. But I'm worried if I might write it the wrong way. You know, the either elaborate or state part. But! I'm glad! For the first time (and probably the last) I memorised all of the definition. And when I'm finished with this crap, I forgotten it. Funny.

Add Maths. So far, the only paper that I'm not confident with. I think I screwed it. But well, at least I tried my best and I did more than I used to.

Physics! Was awesome, if I didn't answer the wrong thing. All the topics I've been paying attention to came out. So glad! :D Section B is as always tricky, but I think I get quite some marks there. I'm worried for my Paper1 and Paper 3, still :/

So!

10 more days! 5 more papers! 2 more subjects to crush! 1 more step to freedom!

Perfect Touch

2011-11-18T16:53:00.001+08:00

So!

It's a really long week :/

And if you see me, you would went like, "Ah! You're having exam!"

Like fucking of course, I have pimples and acne. Plus my throat is threatening to go sore .____. And my pores just go back to large because I just don't find I have the time to relax and wash my face properly. And I look like a panda. I don't really have eyebags so it's really a big deal when you see me with eyebags. It's like... Superman wearing boxers when he fights the world oh wtf.

So why am I here?

Relax of course. It's Friday and the next exam is Moral on Monday. I just need today to sleep and wash my face do some good body scrub and watch movie show.

Because it's gonna be a another dreadful week. Moral, Add Maths, Physics and Chemistry holy shit.

How's my exam?

Malay, I didn't study much. It wasn't as easy as I have wanted. But I did read some model paper and I did know the contents of the essay. I did insert a lot of idioms too, and my writing style was like the usual. And hopefully, based on this, I would do better. As for Paper 2, I don't think I can get higher marks than the usual. Because, what the hell is cepumas? And once again, the prosa tradisional killed me. I read it, of course. But I just don't seem to answer well. I extremely pleased for my Papa and Interlok section though. I thought I did well! :D

English, never need to worry :D I'm sure I can get a minimum A-...well, I mean, it's still dangerous to be sure, but it's English. It's my strongest subject. God please don't fail me. But the Section A certainly did. It was so short and my favourite part, too, is the normal 4 pages. I'm kinda feeling uneasy about that.

And we have History, where I studied my ass off...um, sorry, memorising. And I'm kind of stupid to study Chapter 8 but you see I just didn't study History for the whole year and certainly I didn't bother to spot what is important for the exam. So I did all last minute. And what did I get in the end? A fucking question about my national song, Negaraku and some moral-themed question. It got me wondering for a long time whether there's a hidden message in those questions. Goodness.

Maths, I completely didn't study, because I was trying my best not falling asleep while revising ICT and end up neglecting Maths, but I think I did well! :D There were some questions I never bothered to answer, but this time, I answered all of them. Paper 1 is a bit of a letdown, after knowing some of them I got wrong, but I have this good feeling about it.

ICT, yes! I do superbly good in Section A, but as for Section B and Section C, my hands are shaking sigh. And my project, I didn't exactly get full marks. God help me! :/

So! 17 days to go! 11 papers to go! 5 more subjects to terminate! 1 more step to freedom :)

Friendship

2011-11-07T16:52:00.004+08:00

AWWWWW :D

I look the prettiest.

Okay, fine. Major WTF.

Nostalgia

2011-11-06T18:31:00.003+08:00

OhmyGod :D

I just...wow.

I was reading back some of the comments in my blog...because blogwalkers who don't read my blog and leave comments are really getting on the top of my head. So while I decided to delete all of the comments, I've come across some and just couldn't bear to delete them. But in the end I did.

It was stupid but after I deleted half of them, I just thought I could print screen.

So funny, eh?

Sigh, apart from that, I looked back into 2009 because the blog comments are really funny. I looked so pretty! Well, prettier than I am now. Is it because of the lousy handphone camera? Or is it just me growing older?

Or am I really getting fatter?!

Shit.

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So I did some makeup to film myself doing a cover of SNSD, but it was really bad. I'm not completely recovered from flu, so I took pictures with three hat pins stacking up on my head :D It was fun. I feel like a Mad Hatter :D

Alright, guess that's all.

Cheesy

2011-11-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

I'm upset.

Terrible, terribly upset.

I have never been so upset in my life.

I mean, did you see how many upset I just inserted? Three. Seriously.

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Dante said I tried too hard despite being a happy person.

I tried too hard, he said.

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Firstly, I just have to admit that I'm stressed, deeply, deeply stressed. But that's predictable so I'm not that upset.

However,

I just had to force myself to admit that I may have subconsciously copied the idea of Are You Alice manga. And that's rather humiliating to me, because all my works are supposed to be purely original. Man, I tell you, when I am preparing the disclaimer, I just got so down. I just...I don't know. It's one of the best things I've done, and I hope that when I'm given the credit, nobody would come up and said I copied...So that simply means I somehow have to clarify that it is not just inspired by the manga, but also almost based on the manga. Sigh, I don't know what I'm talking about.

But I give myself a feel-good factor too: I'm honest.

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My mom. For the first time in my life, I actually get to be mad at her.
I know, I know, That's rude. You shouldn't hate your mom. No, I don't hate my mom for one and for two, I'm a human too, okay? I know that we have to be filial and I know that even if the world falls apart, I never should do anything to hurt my mother.

But I'm just that plain upset, you know. Two days, she had been getting mad over anything irrelevant. And when I mean mad, it's not the usual lecture or nagging. She went overboard this time. She actually screamed at the top of her lungs, making noises by slamming the door and anything. What she hadn't done was smashing the glasses, which I think it would happen soon.

And what happened next? She was completely alright. She even smiled and laughed with us. Like seriously?! I'm a pretty sensitive person when it comes to violence and rudeness and whatever negative, so you doing that just left me really confused and personally, I feel like I have just been mentally abused. Or verbally abused. And all of a sudden I just had to pretend like nothing's happened.

Is that easy? No!

The things that she got upset about isn't the right thing to be mad about. I'm not the nanny, we are not the nanny, you are. And we are teenagers. We are just insensitive, but like I have said several fucking times, if you want us to do it, we would.

It's not easier than you think. One of the reasons she got mad was because we woke up late and we keep sleeping late. Like does that even matter than being not able to wake up forever, huh? I don't think I ever get a good sleep since it seems like a crime to wake up late. I stopped breathing every time I hear some yelling downstairs. I'm not joking around, I'm terrified. I remembered when we first moved in here, I was so scared I had to pretend I woke up naturally.

Now? I don't fucking care anymore. I just go back to sleep, let her say what she wants.

That's why I am more than determined to move out as soon as I'm able to support myself. It's not that living in here is hell. I just don't want to live in fear.Some days, I'm more than positive that she would smash the glasses. Even if she didn't, I would. I'm going nuts, what's with all the current stress factors (story gone, friend gone, exam coming wtf) It's good for the both of us this way. Distance makes love stronger. It's sort of like a win-win solution too. She didn't need to get so mad about people sleeping late and waking up late, and I don't need to stop breathing every time I hear her screaming while I was asleep.

It's not that I don't love this family; it's not like chaos happen every day...it's just that it's better this way, you know. Somehow it seems to be the only way to strengthen the bond.

And as much as I hate to live in the same room with my sister, I find it a nice idea to live out with her...or with my cousin.

Since I'm a bubbly person, I might as well insert this: I shall start planning now.

Stand Up Satan

2011-11-06T00:48:00.000+08:00

Fight with my vengeance

Hello guys! :)
Random post for today! Had fun and been tired and been bored for the whole week, so I did a lot of random stuff but just not study! (:

First, a movie I just watched today :) (Omg, too much smileys :/)

Real Steel

9/10

Honestly, I'm not into boxing. Human boxing that is. They are downright fake, exaggerating, boring. And just lame. But robot boxing is different, because you can smash each other till death and no human will be harmed and no human will be sent to jail for murder! :D

This one has the elements like many other action/family movies, but somehow it just has this nice touch to it. I'm starting to like Dakota Goyo. Every little things do matter, you know. I just laughed at the part where he started dancing and the robot followed. And also the part where he just hit Hugh Jackman.

And I try not to make more comment, this gonna be long post *nods* But the Japanese dude is hot! :O

PANDORA HEARTS! OMG, I'm so obsessed right now but I can't watch it because SPM's coming so soon :/ But yeah, up there, Break. Super awesome name for a super weird dude.

Did you know?!

I watched it in the middle of the night to make myself sleep only to find myself going gaga for the next episode. It was turning 3 in the morning, so I sorta went more gaga and hit myself on the pillow what with all the mysteries of the anime as well.

Really, really good anime. It's been such a long time since...not even Nana. Way back then. Sekaiichi Hatsukoi is different, because it's yaoi *clears throat*

No, what I'm trying to say is...this is the first picture that got reblogs! And I was kind of taken aback. Does that mean I have to google more pretty images to post into Tumblr so people would follow me?

YO REALISTIC PEOPLE, THERE'S A REALLY COOL KID SO YOU SHOULD SO FOLLOW HER.

Pictures!

I just cleaned my brush and as weird as it may seem, it worked well.

To know where I learn this: Cleaning and Drying You Brushes

Now, I didn't exactly follow hers on the whole washing process because it was sudden and I don't have all the stuffs. But anyway, you should so subscribe to her because she was a really artistic makeup artist! :) Brilliant, too.

Yes, I love my Smurf.

Leena said she would die in the middle of the night if she found this next to her.

Debbie Tew!

Tini Lee

Now a few vain moments with him here and there.

Tini Lee just bullied my cousin :/

Sea Amber Jelly from Snowflake!

And more snapshots :)

Haha, I know :D

Milwaukee Steak House has officially become our favourite.

OOTN :p

Oh, I tightlined! It has this weird addiction to it :/

Still trying to use mascara properly, but bleh. Even the clumps cannot form the spider lashes well.

Now, this is some face art. It's a bit futuristic and scientific and at the same time, fantasy. Scifi?

When you have to dry one brush, just do it this way :D

Oh went to saloon one day and saw Ceci's Feb issue. And I was like OMG CHANGMIN!

And they showed this gorgeous dress!

And Beast!

Hm, yeah :D

Sunglasses from Nose. I feel super awesome.

And totally geeky and nerdy.

OMG, that corner of my laptop has some magnetic force in it. It actually attracted my necklace's chain :/ Creepy.

Well, that's all for the randomness. Wish me luck for SPM! ;p

Army of Me

2011-10-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

This post is all about Sucker Punch.

And let me tell you this: I love it. No way, you're kidding me. Why?! Why? Because of all those epic scenes...that and nothing else.

OMG, do you get my sarcasm?

Cause if you don't, I'll have to rant. Feel free to leave if you are already sick of my desperately-seeking-details attitude.

But I'm serious. I really love the CG effects and all those fighting scenes. It's strange because at times I won't enjoy it. But, I have never mentioned anything about how awesome the storyline is. That said, the movie is nothing but a girl leading the other four into some nonsensical world of action and fights.

Note: OMG! Emily Browning! No wonder you looked familiar. The psycho in The Uninvited, one of the best horror/thriller film of all time to me ;) Now you see why she's perfect for this movie.

The starting of the movie is totally cool. That rock music played as Babydoll tried to survive getting raped/murdered/beaten by her stepdad. Wait, did I even know what he's trying to do? No, I just assumed that he's gonna rape her because there's two pretty little girls at home, and he almost tore her shirt off. And that when he couldn't get her, he looked for the younger sister instead. Besides, he has the pervert look. Plus, the aim's pretty obvious: if he can't get the money, he has to own the girls, at least.

Okay, here's the thing: if you're already suspicious that your stepdad is gonna harm you in some ways, why did you run to your room instead back to your sister's room? Really? It's one step away. That way, you wouldn't kill your sister. It's to make sure the movie continues, but seriously. Every human has some instinct to fight for survival which makes them smart enough to think better than that.

And I just really don't get how she could miss that shot. Girl, you're twenty. Early in the movie, I thought you could be sixteen, but then you are actually twenty, which makes me feel that you're beyond stupid. How did it end up on your sister instead? Oh dear.

And then it's all about her figuring the needed items to free herself (which suggests she's smart, but then what got her here in the beginning again?) and visiting everything around, her stepdad whispering to Blue about lobotomy (new discovery for me! an operation to cure a mental illness...but seriously?) and that's the beginning of her imagination.

So, it really confused me beginning this part. But I'm gonna summarized the whole thing before I start to begin my rant. In her imagination, she imagined herself in battles with some really cool samurais and soldiers and stuffs. It happened when she performed her dance, where her instinct for survival made those moves seductive and hypnotic (her looks obviously don't say she's a good dancer, that's probably why they didn't film it :/) But then when she was hypnotizing a chef to obtain a kitchen knife, her imagination was stopped halfway because in her primary imagination, there was an error. The chef was mad that he took his knife and stabbed Rocket, where in her battle imagination, Rocket died as well.

And then it led to Blue finding out who was behind all this plan as Blondie revealed it. Both she and Amber were killed in the end, whereas Sweet Pea was locked (why don't you just kill her? Right? I don't get it) As Blue tried to rape Babydoll, she stabbed his shoulder and ran away with Sweet Pea. However, she saw a bunch of bodyguards and eventually she realised the last item needed to escape is herself (which is stupid. You are the one who wanted to escape). So it has an extended ending where Babydoll had a short conversation with High Roller and when beginning to have sex, she went back to reality, where she was just lobotomized.

I didn't get the last few parts, but in the end Blue was arrested for forging signature. And Babydoll just looked dazed. And honestly, I don't get why Blue had to cry when she looked clueless. It's not like he was in love with her whatnot.

Oh yes, and Sweet Pea was one of the mental patients to run away. And all this time, people, we had been fooled. It isn't Babydoll who is the main lead, it's Sweet Pea, because usually, the one who would survive is the main character but it was Sweet Pea who got away. And not to mention she was the one who started with the prologue and epilogue. And because of that, the viewer and critic explained that this is the reason behind the title of the movie.

...

In fact, you know what? I personally think the movie's meant to satifsy Zack Snyder's perverted imagination. Everything's rape rape rape. Her stepdad's wanna rape her, the club saved her for High Roller (which means she's still gonna get raped), Blue wanted to rape her, and in the end she had sex with High Roller. Honestly? Yeah.

I mean, Babydoll is twenty. But they designed her to wear two pigtails and wore school uniform. Like really. And the name itself, Sweet Pea? Guys? Seriously? And throughout the whole movie, despite knowing that she's twenty, I just can't help but to think they saved her specially for High Roller just because she's under-aged and is a virgin. Wow, it must be erotic for guys to watch a girl dancing sexy moves while dressing up as an innocent school girl. Or innocent virgin. Seriously.

And did they do that intentionally, or why is it that they have a fancy room to serve their clients, but end up sleeping in some crappy room? Even prostitutes sleep in the same room with or without a client. And do they need to help out in kitchen? Huh?

And Babydoll's a girl. Maybe she is mentally ill after all, else no girl would ever want to see themselves getting raped unless they are some hardcore author trying to produce something awesome before their final terminal stage of cancer :/ Look at what happened in the end: she actually smiled when having sex with High Roller, even the doctor in real life went like, "Did you see her look? It's like she wanted me to do it." If her burlesque imagination wasn't an imagination, then perhaps it wouldn't be so bad. Hey dudes, she just imagined herself having sex with someone she didn't even know! She's not supposed to be a slut, now is she?

But...

I like how the story is like...you know, drawn as an imagination, like another dimensional imagination after a imagination, but really, it just didn't work out well as it continued. I also love the CG effect during the battles, as expected from Zack Snyder and don't mention their super awesome outfit, regardless of the burlesque theme or the battle theme! :D

Verdict: Guys, watch it and you may or may not get turned on. It's more like pieces of random things being piled and turned into a movie. Like me having random paragraphs of a nice story that can't progress any further, so I put them in a draft version first :/ Girls, you probably will think all of them are sluts.

5/10

Read this amazing review :O. Whatever he said just made sense and let us question more.

Move the Boys

2011-10-25T00:41:00.000+08:00

Lam returned to the music scene with a hit single "至少還有你" (At Least I Still Have You) from her first album with Virgin in 2000. A Korean remake of the song, sung by Super Junior-M, a sub-group of the K-Pop band Super Junior, was released in their Me album titled 당신이기에 (Tangshiniki-e) in 2008.

-Wikipedia--

There, Secret's Love is Move
Honestly, I'm more towards to this song because it appears fresh-er since the previous singles of theirs are sickening me because they are too cute :/ So it's good to see them back with a sexy concept, but not sexy enough for the song.

The song, like their previous singles, are more towards the retro feel. And before that, they delivered a super sexy teaser photos, and I will tell you I'm rather disappointed when they released such retro single, which I would say, didn't match up to the teaser photos :/ In this case, since they say they'll go head to head against SNSD, allow me to add that SNSD manages to deliver the female power from the teaser photos to the stage. So, SNSD leads here.

But I'd say, I love the song, every parts of it. Whereas SNSD's single doesn't satisfy me :/ Although the MV is yet again another one with set that isn't as pretty as the one in Starlight Moonlight, so it's a bit of a letdown. Apart from Starlight Moonlight, their MV has been conducted in a rather similar way. A dance set for a group and 4 more sets for each individual.

Since there's nothing much to mention about the video, I would like to say the fashion is not bad :D I'm not pleased with Zinger's though, I think she's got some sexy done wrong. We have Minzy who is crazier but I think she's way more normal than Zinger who appears...slutty to me :/ I don't like her in her individual set where she wears this branded jacket and a swimsuit inside. And with the hairstyle, she aged a lot o.o And I don't like it. If you wanna be sexy, girl, you do it in our age's way. Even HyoSung's outfit.The outfit with her frizzy hair looks alright, but really, that big hair and the flirtatious set of clothes just make her look really big-size, too. Come on guys, do her some justice. JiEun and SunHwa are undoubtedly the best looking again :D That's probably they are the cuter type rather than sexy :/

The dance, I admit, they are better than SNSD. More hardcore and more energy if I have to say. But I dare say that if they don't focus, they may lose their sync. But really, I am amazed by JiEun. She dance and sing live :o

So, SNSD's The Boys
I was very delighted with the teaser. I've heard shits about forcing to change image for US debut, but you know what? I'm not new to kpop so it doesn't matter and I'm not a SONE so it doesn't matter even more.

However.

MV? Mixed feelings.

Intro
It started with an intro of YoonA picking up a black crystal and by now, I'm already sick of watching it. But I love the scene where all of them walked in the skies of falling roses (wtf?). It really does hold the mystery and romance together with an air of female's leadership. It shouts with grace (if possible), "Welcome to the Female Empire."

I love the beat of the intro. It compliments the whole female empire concept, I love the dresses, I love the eyes and looks on them. And from that moment, you can guess who would be a great model and who fits to be a princess ;) I also like how they swapped the scenes to the next five girls like it's really effortless :o You know like how they focus on Tiffany's dress and suddenly it's SooYoung? Love that part. But the slow mo and turning around part isn't really my favorite, but I guess the director had to do so :/

And then the very awkward part of Jessica. As awkward as it may be, it's a really nice one too. I don't get why they have to include the scene of her releasing the dove, but yes, I can feel the feminine side of a queen, if that's what they are trying to convey. But the next part of her releasing the dove seems to awkwardly fit the first part :D I don't know :D I was like, "Uh, this part is awkward," But the second time I watched it I went like, "Hey that's good."

And with that, the intro ended with only the dove and the roses. Perfect.

The Song
I am not that disappointed BUT I am not delighted either.

It's like a bunch of dancing gangster intruded the female empire and threatened to kill the queens with their dance if they don't let them in (doesn't it sound like the Oh! and RDR version of SNSD?)

No, not all gangsters that act like barbarians. It's just that the elegance in their dance as compared to the elegance in the intro are different. And isn't intro should be something like teaser which is supposed to hint you of what's coming, as said by Simon? Why are there queens, and next thing, female rebels?

Personally, if they don't include the intro, then I would be alright with the MV and the song. Seriously, I cried because I wanted the intro to be the tracklist instead D: Okay, maybe not but yeah :/

Okay, now I'll be fair. The song is 50/50. I love the beat, I love the fresh new idea and the rap. I'm a sucker for TaeYeon's part obviously ;p But generally the song ends abruptly to me :/ I personally think they should cut down on the 'sissy rap' because well, there's not enough manliness in this one. Yeah, they are girls, they should be feminine, but hey, you are the leaders right? Since your rap in the middle of the song is powerful, certainly the rest of the rap can be done decently too, no? So about the rap in the middle, gorgeous. For newbie rapper, they are pretty good. I love HyoYeon there, and that's a surprise. But I never really like artists include their name into their song. You know what I mean. Girls Generation we don't stop. To me, it's awkward, period.

The video is certainly an eye candy! And for a fashion addict like me, I'm certainly delighted :D Whichever clothes, hairstyle, my favorite! Well, except SooYoung's furry orange sweater, but it looks expensive on her. I like their colourful punk version, I love their royalty suit version, I love their office suits one too! :D And of course, solo parts of them in gorgeous princess dresses :) There are a few shots I really like, like Yuri and Sunny in upclose. Yuri is not really that outstanding as a beauty, but when she's that close to you you are like, wow.

The dance is undoubtedly a good one. It's SNSD, after all. There's nothing much that I notice, and if they say it's any different, I personally don't think so :/

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Tablo!

He's my favorite in Epik High and recently he released his solo album.
And when I read allkpop, I was moved by the lyrics of this song, From the Bottom (but I have to say, the title sounds wrong for a yaoi fan like me)

However,

The rhythm does not deliver the kind that I would like to hear. It's a song about understanding and regretting that you couldn't do anything for your loved ones. I know Tablo's a rapper, but I wanted something more ballad rather than...I don't know, is that a RnB? I mean, the collaboration of Eminem and Rihanna is successful, so maybe you should work something out? I'm sorry, apart from the last second where Tablo's child say Papa for the first time, I'm not moved.

Tablo's Bad
Love is bad, love is bad. But this ain't bad. Finally, something nice to listen from his solo album. Well, nice to my ear, that is.

I tried to watch the MV, since it's really a tough job nowadays cause my concentration seems to be getting worse. But anyway, I did and the next thing is I'm confused. So, both of you are in love and you love some really abusive sex relationship in a pretty dangerous house? So what's the story about, honestly? Buddha.

BUT! There's a positive side :D Tablo is super hot :D I'm sure the tattoo isn't real, but damn he looks super hot. Plus the camera keeps focusing on his face and then his tattoo alone so it sort of make the MV much better. Ah, Tablo is so so so so hot :) Wearing faux coat, with a gorgeous ring and just that whole classy mobster attitude, you know? :D

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Ah my favorite gagwoman Shin Bong Sun!

This is a wonderful CF. Everything looks so cute. I like how they filmed the moment she walked to the streets with the Missha board :D

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Till here!

So It Is Hard To Say It.

2011-10-24T01:44:00.001+08:00

I'm attempting a song written by us,
Trying to sing it all by myself,
But it just won't play well, without you,
So boy, won't you come home...to me?

So...I graduated :D

Still gonna go back to school for SPM, of course. But I graduated :/ And wow, that feels a tad bit weird. I used to think leaving high school is a happy thing. I'd be free from all this shitty rules and can start anew. I thought I can show people who I truly am, but the graduation night seemed to leave some regrets and pain in me.

Like shit, I'm getting emotional.

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Oh, I'm starting a new story! :D
And yes, I know that may not be a good idea nor a good news. But they make sense, you know. When what you are writing feels more like doing homework, STOP writing. So I did, and I'm not feeling guilty :)

But I do feel guilty for unable to touch the books that are just 10cm away from me D:

Okay, enough with all the blabbering. Pictures from Graduation! A bit blurry because my camera sucks but well, memories stay in heart :D

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So! I thought I wanted to make my hair a bit wavy so this is what I did. Braided pigtails :D

But my hair went back straight wtf! D:

Crystal!

And Kimmy because people didn't recognise her.

Gosh, bad lightings o.o Else it would be a good shot.

This, too! Chyi was so pretty :D

Vivien!

Dhani!

Half-Jin :D

Kah Hau! :D

The guy whose hair cannot be messed with.

Honestly, I think this one is one of the Top 5 Best Pictures in my Camera?

Despite that, he was like, "Wtf, flash?"

I KNOW I'M ROUND WTF D:

Kwan Loon :D

YuPeng...who never smiled :/

YeeHong!

Hand just moved, but the abstract is surprisingly good :o

JinEw! Tall as ever, he was like, "Haha, yes, I had to take one step lower."

L-R: Syahir, Asywaad, Akram, and Afiq :D

Won Jin :D

I told Leena I sat beside him. Biggest nightmare.

Leena: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mackey :D

Sweetie Munira :D

Ain't she gorgeous? :D

Alyssa :)

Lecturer (kidding!) Kwang Ming and Earvin.

As always, why so serious? *Joker style*

Vivien :D

One of the best pictures too.

"It's because I'm pretty."

KwangMingL: WTF

"Ah I'm pretty!"

*walks away*

Crystal glared.

LiYoong!

Soo! Ah I look thin! :)

Adeline! :) She's totally gorgeous, ain't she?

Cheap! :) Trying to be expensive ;p

Asywaad!

Syahir! :) I'm never going to take with this angle anymore :(

Afiq and Vivien! :)

And his funny face.

Jia Wen! :)

Shuen, omg, all of them blur :/

That hidden head is YuPeng

HonNang!

Chan!

The gay couple! Who look like partners of bodyguards :D

"Ei, full shot la!"

"Why is the camera so close?"

Des! :)

YeeHan and YiXian :)

Mukesh and Nazreen! :)

CheeCheng again!

And Bernard! :) More handsome no? ;)

Joel, my twin! (gag gag puke puke)

Lancy, yes, lancy!

Not even all the boys in the class :/

Kendly! :)

ChiaYung! Officially Soshified.

Gavin!:)

Tan YiMann :)

Amirul!

Jeremy! Haha, I know I rarely spoke to the cousins anymore but I ran around to catch anybody I know to take last pictures. Sigh.

And this is Crystal Tan trying to show everyone that I'm a short but not petite girl despite a 4-inch boost :(

Guess who?

Berwin!

BLUR!

What to do? Xin Inn's sparkling wtf :D

Class teacher!

And Kwang Ming being mischievous.

Vivienne!

Funny faces ;)

Oh yeah, we're at Murni ;D

I Miss You, I Kiss You, I Love you! :D

And some selca of my beautifully (not) done eyes! :D Although the face's round :/

Alright! :D I'm done here. Gonna catch up some sleep. No more Monday tuition wee!

Colour Pop!

2011-10-16T02:43:00.001+08:00

Heys! :)

Playing with it and the iPad at the same time baby :D

All the stuffed toys on my bed. And I have little space to sleep. Oh well, I regret nothing. The thing's really big though :o

So I'm screwed, really screwed, apart from the fact that I just got a really nice (but not exactly identical) Smurf! :D

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Shit was enrolled into NS. As alright as we are now, I still can't help but to smirk a little. Especially when my mom said it was because of her attitude that God made her join NS. Karma, that's what she said. Oh yeah, karma baby :)

And also, I am happier seeing that I have more of a cooler life than she does, but I'd give her credit that she's looking better and perhaps better looking than me :)

-

The girls in our family went to join aunt and her daughters yesterday. I was glad that our relationship had all cool down and getting better. But my sister didn't seem to blend into us anymore. It's kind of funny, isn't it? That we are both Libras, and we are so different. She's picking fights however she wants in the bitchiest way (through Facebook, bitchy enough?) while I can pat myself and say 'I'd never pick fights unnecessarily.' Although yeah, I have make mistakes, but not as on purpose as she does.

So! Everytime my aunt and her sister did sit down and talk, they'd talk about the old times, about how bad life was for them living under the same roof with their half-siblings, how they were abused and abandoned by my own grandmother, how fruits are still hard to get, and many other hardships that I couldn't my mom had been through. It makes me swear to myself that no matter what fights I've gone through with my mom, I have to provide her a better living.

Despite that, they all laughed at the humour of it. They all laughed at my second aunt's weird taste on fashion, they laughed at my third aunt's weird taste for boys (she fell in love with weird people and made clothes out of towel and made my aunt cut her hair)

And after all those, I realized my mom was constantly referring to God yesterday. She is never a strong believer of Buddhism, my mother, so it's really weird to see her saying that God has eyes when she said her half sister who used to keep oranges in closet so my youngest aunt couldn't have it was now left by her husband. I said she deserves it too but for my mom to say it while strongly and silently thanking God is like...

The weird moon surrounded with darkness and hauntingly bewitching.

Oh yes, since yesterday the moon was dark and ugly, like hell after heaven. Days before the moon was beautifully lit in its brightest white light while guiding the one and only shining star. It was a beautiful sight.

But as the moon became dark and haunting, it faded.

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The Colour of Your Eyes

2011-10-11T01:39:00.000+08:00

Hey dudes!

Gonna be another random post! :D I'm getting used to this :D And oh, did I mention I just wasted yet another one hour of my life watching some useless and disgusting horror movie? I did question myself why I ever continue...

Anyways, moving on!

I wanna go to the Big Bad Wolf damn it!

Um, moving on! :D

Gorgeous isn't it? Shame that I didn't really like Libra's eye. Though I have to say, it's the purest among all. But maybe this can be an eye makeup?

So! I've watched Mona Lisa Smile and Bounty Hunter. HBO baby ;)

Mona Lisa Smile

8/10

First of all, can I act like I'm an English know-it-all? :D So! The title: do you mean, Mona Lisa's smile or Mona Lisa smiles?

Okay well, the title does not matter at all. If you tell me this is a 2003 production, I'd laugh at you and say bullshit. The graphic's too beautiful to be...oh wait, it is made in 2003. Which makes the movie awesome-r.

To be honest, this is the first movie that I actually and properly witnessed Julia Roberts' talent. Sure, I watched Eat Pray Love halfway and somehow fell asleep (HBO) and if I'm not mistaken, she was a cast in Valentine's Day too? And it's not only her, we have Kirsten Dunst. Which she's an awesome actress, so is Maggie Gyllenhaal (familiar? Jake's older sister :D And the whole family's involved in the business yo') I'm not a big fan of Ginnifer Goodwin, but she definitely acted well.

What I love about this movie is very obvious: the setting. I love the costumes, I love the behaviour and attitude that people back then have. It's fascinating to watch :D (but yeah, mostly because of the costume and the sense of humour they possess)

At first, I was confused, what were they trying to convey? The title was a bit irrelevant for the beginning where a new teacher began teaching in a conservative liberal arts' school (girls' school, to make it worse) just to make a change and difference - to show that girls are not meant to just get married and have babies. But, as the story develops, they start to connect the dots and I was like gaping and praised, "This is brilliant!"

Also, what I love about it is that the story unfolds in the most unpredictable way. At first, you'd be feeling, "Isn't she too much?" and then you forgot about it because (if you're me) you'd feel so absorbed in the movie you forgot the question. And when the characters started pointing out to [Julia Roberts] that she wasn't making a change but forcing people to obey her instead, you'd go like, "Damn, this movie is good."

Also, for those thinking people back then are very conservative, you might want to think again. (and because of that makes the reason why I super super love Maggie! And she resembled someone in ANTM :/)

But my favourite part of all? When [Julia Roberts] started to question and triggered them of what was good art and what made them good art. That art could be good to someone and a piece of trash to other, and there was never a proper human or standard to judge it. Makes me proud :D

Bounty Hunter

7/10

I never plan to watch this, but since it's a Sunday with no activities, I decided to watch it (finally! A decent movie that happened right on time without needing to record!) because it's Jennifer Aniston and Gerard Butler.

So do you call this a chick flick? I'm not sure, but what I'm sure that it's as close as to be judged as unoriginal, yet-again-another-same-storyline movie. I know I've said this several times to other typical movies, but we all gotta give them credits for some fresh ideas and humour. But I'm serious. The story progresses like any other comedy romance: I hate you, we are in some trouble together, we got stuck in some romantic place, we started seeing each other, we started clearing all our misunderstanding, we are in love (again).

Really, I will tell you that this is a good movie, but does it worth it? Well, since originality seems to be lacking in cinemas and movies itself, yeah. If not, no.

Good one, cat, good one.

I've done a new drawing!

I'm satisfied with the dress, but something was off that the satisfaction wasn't enough :/

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Study group (:/) in Starbucks.

Now, don't they look good together? (revenge nyehehe revenge!)

Whipped cream, as always! :D

--

And guess what my brother got?

Hello, Black Angry Bird! OMG, it's so comfy! :D

And another artistic shot of my ex-dog :(

And the red one, of course. Belongs to my sister!

What about me? Well, I'll get my Smurf soon :)

I got this awesome wallpaper made by different materials in MPH bookstore. Major love! :D

Hauls! - Nose Warehouse sale ;)

The absolutely gorgeous vintage clutch with chain :D RM20.

Oh, this is a birthday present from Kimmy!

The very pretty earrings. RM10. Gave it to my mom though. But she would have to return it to me soon mwahaha.

I've got three bags. All with the same shades :/

This is obviously for dinner party. But it's like one in a million. Turquoise, satin and just plain gorgeous, why not just get it? It's not like I won't ever get to go for dinner right? RM20

This super awesome bling clutch/ sling bag is RM20 ;)

This one is the most expensive :O RM30. But it's alright, it's made around this year?

Sunnies! Gorgeous RM10 sunnies!

With white rose.

Heels! This like super mature but every girl needs one :D Plus, I'm going to be soon legal to go to clubs :D RM20

Sandals! I decided to get this for my mom specially since her size is so small that we no longer can share the same shoes. And I wanna show her that I care so ta-da! RM20

But she's more interested in this one. This fits her and me too, but not sis. Big Foot :/ She said it was really unique to have the strings like that. RM10?

There's another nude heels that I bought. One size bigger than mine, fits my sis, but that won't stop me from wearing it! RM20 :D

Candid anybody? :)

And wtf. Just realised my brother had the case too. Didn't know that :/ He probably didn't realise it either.

Who looks angrier? ;D

Alright, off to sleep. Apparently, I'm no hopes for straight As ;p
Byes!

The Future is Not for Me

2011-10-05T00:36:00.001+08:00

Hello people!

Exam's over!...for now :/ But I've got to rest...with some major fever.
I'm serious...the doctor was like, "Didn't you suffer yesterday night? Your neck is so hot!"
And I was like, no, I felt myself burning, that was all. But no sore throat. And she was like...dumbfounded. Yeah, absolutely dumbfounded.

But anyways, a day later I've completely recovered and wanna be a little bit lazier...again.

HEECHUL! D:
He left so much surprises after he left...*wipes off tear* he's so nice to his fans *sniffs*
But anyway, this song may not be the best and may not be outstanding but it has its very own unique harmony that I found myself enjoying it. I guess it has something to do with the warmth coming out from the collaboration of the legend and the weird (:/)

And the music video is very lovely too! Although it's mostly the scene where both of them were singing down, but bias or not, I'm not sure but I can feel it. I can feel some strange sort of happiness (:

--

Alice Burdeu!

"Trust your instincts and don’t obsess too much on style."

As everyone of you who knows, I'm a big fan of Australia and America's Next Top Model. Alice is the winner for Australia's Next Top Model Cycle 3 and for me, she is by far the only one who deserves the title. If there's an all star, once again, she would strive!

I mean, she has the look, she has the legs, and she's got the walk. Her walk is like one of the best :D It's unique, serious shit. And she looks good in any hair colour. She is born blonde and when I saw her for the first time (although blonde is yet to be the most outstanding for her) I knew she's the winner.

Go Alice! I should have googled you earlier. You are so gorgeous! :O

--

Everyone remember this? :D

Omg, I cried like shit when I saw HanGeng...he was so much more handsome wtf.
I'll never get tired of this shit though :D Damn timeless. I still laughed at SungMin's awesome laughter. And the part where Kangin sort of splashed the cola :/ Nasty, I think he did it on purpose.

Maybe I talk a lot ( for blogging's sake, call it comment) but I just want to improve my judging skills . People were saying how awful that I never pay attention to details or just give like blunt review when there's obviously so many things to say. So, pardon me ;)

Has anybody noticed Taemin's awesome hairstyle with that witch hat? :D It brings naughtiness to a whole new level :D And Key's too :) I love his blonde hair with some weird streaks somewhere in his hair ;p

And only that, the rest are once again failures. As in bad, bad failures. Though Onew's not as bad as it was in Korean version, but it's still weird. But my God, JongHyun looked absolutely horrible. Seems like nobody told him that no one's into this kind of wild lion king look :/

The song is not as addicting as it should be. Sure, I have mentioned that their Japanese version is much nicer of that than Super Junior's, but this is by far the worst. And if I have to point out, I hear less harmonies in the background for some reason. But applause for Minho's rap as he gives a new twist for this version :D

Overall, the CG effects are pretty much the same, but I'd rather a much more nicer and bewitching set -___-

--

I saw a super rude FTI bias in allkpop. Apparently, FTI was under fire for being super rude for blablabla case. And turned out their fans had become rude too :/

Major WTF right. Like sheesh. I even went and scolded her to see if something's wrong with her mind. I mean like, what. It makes perfect sense and you went and say they are wrong and your FTI is this and that. Gawd, eat shit.

--

Alright, I'll stop here then! :D

Happy Birthday to Me!

2011-10-04T03:27:00.001+08:00

ZERO ZERO ZERO ZERO ZERO!

Oh hi :)
So, it was my birthday. Which meant it passed, with awesomeness that didn't quite match mine, but it's alright. I love it :D

So! Let's start off with some really weird Facebook wishes. As in, really interesting ones.

Mr. Ng is my cousin's friend. Awesome and outgoing and he found out I'm a huge fan of Korean pop, and followed my cousin to call me Korean. Sigh, JinEw's so gonna be mad :/

Not that interesting, but it's my No.1 cousin, so why not?

AWWWW! :') I cried like shit. He remembered our 'lifetime promise'. Now shit I have to save my money again because I spent them all.

I was duped (if that's the word :/) by this bloody woman last birthday. I thought I would have a good sum of angpau, but turns out to be a painful but lovely card. Will show you guys next time!

HAHAHAHAHA! Lim-pe (aka Lim-kor aka the Libran gone mushy) He knew me super well, doesn't he? As creative as a Libran can be ;p

This dude *grab a rope*is so gonna die.

Aw, Adeline, that's pure insulting but it's okay :D

And dinner with my relatives. Coincidentally, they came down for business :D And so that explained why I had a large sum of angpau this year :D

At Milwaukee Steak House

Chicken Chop!

It's my first time here so I bloody don't know what to order. They all look so yummy.

This is the other that other ordered -__-'

And my cousins trying to be lovey dovey. Trying.

My uncle! Super poser :D

Left to Right: My uncle, my aunt, my aunt, my mom

OOTD: A creamy white lace dress. Super lace! :D

My shoes are too yellow though :/

Debbie was there too, interuption pfft ;p

I absolute love this picture! :D

This is because my aunt ate my cake. Doesn't matter ever if my face is super round now.

Presents!

From Leena!

She said she knew I never had anything like this so it's nice to have one from her! Plus I think it suits the mask she gave earlier :D

And bangles. I love the bangles more actually ;D

From Cheah Chyi :)

Bear Bears, Jojobear :D

From Kimmy

Like I think she's got obsession for lip products wtf

This is for lips that talk,smile, laugh and kiss.

Unfortunately,

my lips' still virgin wtf.

Posing with it ftw!

For dork who kiss wtf.

If it's used for ad, this works :D

For sohai lips

For crooked lips

For dazed lips.

Okay, I know. WTF.

From Rachel!

a very lovely card...

...except this part wtf.

From Crystal!

Aw :')

From Rachel!

From Crystal :o

Like super nice shoes,except I look weird in it.

Crystal got me tons of stuffs every year. Here's a jumpsuit.

Not the jacket though.

I know I know, but *shows middle finger*

And a yellow sundress. Makes me look a lil' fat but it's cute :D

AW! Aren't I cute ?:)

And some purple camisole from her.

A super nice shirt my aunt got me! It looks weird too :/

So I guess that's all about my birthday. I posted it because I noticed there's a lot of nice selcas :D Haha, so long!

Draw With Me

2011-09-25T17:54:00.001+08:00

OMG THIS IS SO SAD Dx

Too touching, I cried.
Okay, cut the crap, not really.
But seriously?! This is so touching, so beautiful...so wonderful :D
It's very inspiring too *smirks*
But anyway,
I'm bored. And studying doesn't seem like the option now. I'm kind of in a lost today :/

Oh well, bye!

Where's Your Joke?

2011-09-25T02:54:00.000+08:00

...*half dead* *doing zombie moans* *checked Mangafox* *went to Sekaiichi Hatsukoi* WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN TO ME? *whimpers* UNGH D; *checks Junjou Romantica* *head shot up, eyes sparkled* *clicked the link* *the word updated is bold* *eyes sparkled* *giggled...LIKE A FANGIRL* *spirit's up LIKE A BOSS* *flings hair LIKE A BITCH*

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So! Since my spirit's lifted (LIKE A BOSS) I decided I'm gonna blog and spread you the good news! Huggies anyone? :D

Maybe not.

--

"Uneven lids is common."
:D
"Don't worry. It depends on your sleeping hours. It can lasts for like a day to a week."
*whimpers with a hoarse voice*
MINE LASTS FOREVER BITCH.

Then:
'Some people have permanent uneven eyes which again, isn't a serious problem. Nobody is completely symmetrical and this is what makes us unique. To be honest, unless you point it out; it probably isn't even noticeable to people at all. Believe me, I used to feel self conscious about my uneven eyes and I pointed it out to some friends and they were like 'Wha?" -Bubz

I love you :D

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The awkward moment when you found out your sister was mad at you and she posted some bitchiness directed to you through Facebook.

I'm gonna learn from Ryan Higa and embrace it and see it as humour,
Like of course, it happened to me.
And as frustrating as it may be, I'm gonna LOL.
But seriously.
What the fuck?

Okay, fine. I know I ought to be bitched by her because it's not like I'm super perfect and that I, too, always bitch about her. But what?! Facebook? Can you be any lousier? Oh wait, sorry, it seems that you don't have a Blogger, nor a Tumblr, nor a Twitter.

Well, I'm sorry for being extra bitchy but I can't help feeling a bit betrayed because it's FACEBOOK and she's my sister (Then you'll see that I'm extremely pissed because I sorta mentally pointed and laughed at her grammar mistakes wtf!) . But then I had to calm down because at the end of the day I did bitch about her so it's fair for her to bitch about me too.

But why did she bitch about me?

Just because I pointed out the obvious. Like, really obvious.
And she had been thinking I'm being super mean because of some mood swings. But it's all because I want to fight for myself. And while I'm doing that, she made sure she remembered what I said and what I did but she never seemed to remember who started it with a nasty, displeased tone and well, obviously I see that. Who won't? My mom had quite a point back then when she was extremely upset of her: she kept thinking her life is bad, her life is bad, but she never thought just how much better her life actually is.

Most of the time, she ganged up with my brother to offend me when I did nothing.
She called me fatass like it didn't matter because she was kidding, and now she's getting all worked up because of some piece of shit (no, I'm serious. As in, it's really shit) plus I may had mention it but she gave me faces when I said anything that's true but bad for her hmph.
And she always think she was the one doing anything and everything while I sat there watching TV. It's true, I won't deny it, but that doesn't mean you can let out your anger, releasing your bitchiness, saying mean things to me.
Why won't you saying to your brother yo'?
Is that all you got, bitch?
Well, if I'm you, I'd way more worse.
Wait, you are worse, hypocrite.

When mom was out, she acted all violent and rude to me and to the kids at home I don't even listen to her anymore. She yelled louder than I am (and there she was complaining to my mom when I yelled at them directly in front of my mom, pfft) when Mom's not around.

She ordered me to do things which honestly I don't really mind. I said if you ask me to do it, surely I would. Because I'm well aware of the fact that I don't often help around the house and I don't count how many times I did that and did this, unlike somebody ;p

She didn't bother feeding the baby when Mom was out and played with iPad so the kids and I were out at the lawn while she was in the living room. Then the elder kid went into the toilet and waited for someone to wipe her ass. It took me minutes to walk to find that she's still stuck in there and she told me she called the bitch but the bitch scolded her.

Was I not supposed to be offended, seriously? I wanted to yell at her (I did, but not too much) that I had been wiping her ass all the time so she could do some nice job to stop pretending. Honestly, it wouldn't be so bad if she would call me in. But I remembered the younger kid's shit had I not cleaned and it had always been her, so I let the matter rest.

But I was still mad. Who wouldn't? It's shit. I'm tired of it. It's nasty. It would help if once in a while, she could stop being so fake. So when the younger kid made noises and that she also wanted to use the toilet, I told her as well as directly towards my sister, that it's none of my business.

Yes, I'm the faulty one but WHAT CHU GONNA DO, PUNK?

And I don't know what else I could do to release this weird emotion in my heart...except blogging here. I don't know, we'll see. If she ever wants to repel all I'm gonna do is to tell my mom how fake she is because I can't stand her anymore. She's an eyesore. Not that I'm not one to her ;p

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Get Out -JYJ
Now I wouldn't cry around like Rachel and says, "My boys have grown up."But damn, this MV is hot.
YooChun is the most outstanding in the MV. I don't know, but JaeJoong is undeniably the best looking male in the MV but YooChun grabbed all the attention. He's hot :o

And the reason why I'm recommending this because I find it nicer than In Heaven (sorry sometimes timing is important when I listen to ballads to decide if they are nice.) is because this MV is so much better than Ayy Girl. No more crappy editing, no more apron shirt, no more rolling down the sexy window joke, no more Kanye West. Peace dude.

Yes, speaking of the dance joke, the dance is awesome! I can't help but to feel there's massive expression of freedom when they fling their arms and kick their feet up. I was enjoying the whole dancing process I wish the dude and the bitch to move out of my way so I can watch them dance a lil' longer. Those cars can move, too.

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Okay, I think I missed out something, but currently, I have nothing more to say or bitch. So bye! :D

2011-09-18T18:17:00.000+08:00

Oh hello people!
More movies. Mommy insisted to catch some horror movies and I, of all people, is the surprising person who would accompany my mother (because ironically, I can finish all horror movies while the others who claimed they are not coward would persuade themselves to fall asleep) to watch all these idiots.

But I detest Thai movies, I tell ya'. Not because of quality or sorts (well yeah, some of it) but it's the subtitles that fucking annoy me. Honestly, that's some serious direct translation because I don't get you.

And some of them are very bad. All this karma, witchcraft, flesh-eating human, extremely gory ghosts, predictable are seriously tiring me out and I long given up on a good Thai horror movie. Yes, HongKong horror movies are really bad as well. What's up with goryness when you can get some classic goodness of horror from something like Insidious? :D

But this one is awesome.

Ladda Land

8/10

Ladda Land is the name of the new and considerably luxurious neighbourhood. Is it haunted? Well, I'm not sure and it's none of the subs fault, I will tell you because they didn't state it. All we can say is that the place is cursed. Maybe in the past, it was a cemetery land. But the trailer meant different. Something that suggests that your house is haunted. But funny because throughout the movie, the ghost hunting wasn't conducted.

If you watch it you'd be confused too. What I can come up with is that those murders are all coincidental, and you can say it's cursed or that the feng shui is completely off, which is by the way rather relatable. But anyway, it's the way the mind works that drives you crazy. Because you might want to know it's by the producer of Coming Soon and Phobia 2. Coming Soon is a successful movie, gory and completely ridiculous though :/ But it's Phobia 2 that got me thinking it may be all the stress the main lead suffered that led him to be so obsessed with the thoughts of ghosts. Maybe ghosts did exist in the movie...

Which led me to confusion. Are there ghosts in the movies or illusion? Because I saw human bodies with smashed face that has the ability to assault people. And people were killed by humans.But then there were people who died walking around in the backyard. So I don't know. You tell me.

A few things I like about the movie: FINALLY YES NO YOU-STILL-HAVE-TO-DIE ENDING. Instead, it's a warm, heartbreaking about how much a father loves his family. And personally, this sort of horror movie is just my cup of slimy slime :D Like all the doubts, stress, humiliation and mysteries (mystery is never Thai's expertise) mixed up in a movie. Awesome :D

Beastly

9/10

I know it's like an old movie but I still haven't watched ;p Anyways, it'a habit for me to watch a happy movie after a horror movie so that I am able to fall asleep so I grabbed this.

One word: YAY!

Yet another not too much tragedy and loyal true love. Love bad boys gone good, especially when it's a hot dude with great Adam's apple like Alex Pettyfer.

But honestly, even if it stands as a non-inspired movie, it's original too. In the sense that there's a gothic witch in the modern city, an arrogant looks-is-important man who's pretty vulnerable in the beginning (no, we don't see this in Beast in Beauty and The Beast in the beginning of the movie). But yeah, when he was giving her gifts, inviting her to his house and sorts, it is inspired by the movie but hey, this is awesome and original, no swordsfight, for sure :/

OhmyGod, he's such a heartthrob I want to be in his arms God he's so romantic :D

Anyway, I just don't like this movie because the ending is so abrupt I want to see more.

Alright, I'm off to missing someone. My, that's cheesy.Byes!

Love Eopseo

2011-09-17T19:41:00.001+08:00

Hello dudes!

...probably girls too :D

Movies and food are awesome. I swear. But I guess it's general to everyone. Paranormal Activity 3 is coming out! :D :D :D

So yeah, I watched some movies in cinema. Nasi Lemak 2.0 in the new MBO Cineplex in Subang Parade and My Kingdom in Sunway! So:

Nasi Lemak 2.0

I can't even rate this movie. I sort of love and hate it. It's the directorial debut by the ever famous racist in out country, Namewee.

I didn't say I hate him though.

This movie is very Namewee, to me. There's a lot of insults, and some funny moments of some revelation throughout the movie. It's all Namewee, naming out the truth in a rather brilliant way. But if you think longer, you'd just realize that he's insulting what the government has done and things they hadn't been able to get it done.

I agreed with my dad that he isn't really a comedian, but the voice of our ever-rebellious generation with some sense of humour, which some human who wants peace in a very stupid way (which is really not me) would find it really disturbing.

But I'd be really honest: I get annoyed at some scenes. Yes, they are really funny, but it's super lame. It shows some immaturity which, to be fair, is expected.
And and and! There are a few pretty people and some local artists that we never really should forget, be it any race. They are so awesome to watch! :) Karen Kong is my favourite in this movie but I don't think she's our local artist here?

Verdict: It's a just-for-laughter random movie. But you may love it because in this movie, Namewee did successfully published a movie with contents that may be deemed offensive and some funny facts, such as...the identity of Hang Tuah ("why didn't you apply sunscreen?!") and Bollywood movies ("they appeared from behind the trees and behind the bush")

My Kingdom

6/10

Alright, I'll be honest: it's a bit boring. Until my dear HanGeng started slashing people with some daggers and spears whatsoever and some highkicks. But really, there are just a few things I'm really, really confused. Why is it named My Kingdom (not sure about the Chinese title though) when the story is about two opera performers (and should I add, two hot opera performer? :D) and yes, since it's something related to opera, why does it look like you practiced opera and you gained some martial arts knowledge? And why are they speaking Cantonese and all three lead casts speak Mandarin? :/ Gawd, it's annoying.

Nonetheless, this movie is okay and I hoped they would have done more publicity because honestly, not much people were in the cinema when I watched and I saw in some websites that the trailer is published rather abruptly.

And alright, I said I would watch it for the sake of HanGeng but yeah, even if it wasn't HanGeng, I would watch it too...if I read the synopsis first in the cinema websites. I'm honest here.

It's a little bit more complicated and twisting you would imagine. And the fighting choreography is impressive. HanGeng definitely pulled it off easily (his dancing and martial arts background people! and if you are a fan of LiYin you would know too!) but to imagine Barbie Hsu to pull off some martial arts is impressive too. Did I say I love all her clothes in there? :D And haha, I am so happy that Wu Chun is the more annoying and arrogant brat rather than HanGeng haha :)

Okay, that's why I said it's boring..because there's nothing worth mentioning except for the fact that this time, it's not about some boring preserving your sifu's martial arts club but you sifu's name in the opera entertainment industry.

Alright, I'm done here!

Happiness?

2011-09-16T13:42:00.001+08:00

After SPM. After SPM. After SPM.

Life would be so much easier.

And I'd do all the above. Maybe

You're a Monster

2011-09-16T02:41:00.001+08:00

It scares me a lot.

I have indulged in beneficial articles in Cleo only to realise what a horrible person I have become...I have a severe split-personality syndrome...not in a good way.

Well, I've discovered I'm over-sensitive...not that it affected me a lot. I sorta expected I'm a bit of the sensitive types because I worry a lot...and that I mind-read a lot, so I'm glad I'm aware of that in the beginning.

I'm not much of a perfectionist, but I guess you could say banning self from taking ugly pictures (normal, ullzang!) is pretty perfectionist-ish in some ways.

And yes, I do realise I'm a person who undergoes some serious mood swings...happy post, angry post, happy post, sad post, cheerful post, wtf-I-wanna-die post...something like those.

Yes, I realised all that but what I didn't realise is that when all those bad habits get stirred up you get a whole new level of personality malfunction.

Holy God maybe I am sick.

And at times like this, perhaps I just need somebody sensitive enough at home to realise that I over-react in the most unusual way. I'm sorry if that's the way I'm behaving for sixteens years, 11 months and 12 days but certainly you can help bringing down the level of stress and hatred considering I'm sitting for SPM and you do realise I'm losing my ropes to hold on to any hints of hope.

I don't know, I'm being ridiculous again. I'm feeling down, and it's alright to feel down from time-to-time but I feel that for my case, the frequency is higher and higher. I don't know, I feel ugly. Everybody looks gorgeous, if not, alright in their pictures without makeup while I have to do all sorts of stuff to let me feel that I look beautiful.

Maybe some people would say I don't embrace my own beauty, but fuck they all if it wasn't because of them hypocrites I wouldn't be the person I am today.

And sometimes things are falling apart. My sister annoyed me a hell lot. She called me 'fatty' everywhere anytime even when she's not talking to me. She completely mindset herself that in Chinese, big sister means ta fei. And I don't know, she freaked me out too. She's like a monster. Whatever I wear, she said nothing but shook her head. What was the problem? She didn't know. And when I got pissed off I told her off and she said I shouldn't bother to ask. Right, I thought you are nice enough to give me something concrete to let me believe you. I just really wondered if she's trying to make me feel horrible or whatsoever, but since I believed my mother (with her holy mouth of truth) did mean what she said whenever I wear something nice, surely people would see me the same way too. Just except that monster. I just hope somebody gets me.

I don't know. I did nothing yet she did something. Like she's tempting me to slap her and end our sister-ship once and for all.

And you know what? Love to. You mess with me long enough and I'll make sure you get fucked by the ugliest man in the world.

That's just the way I am, boo.

Dream is a Lie

2011-09-11T01:46:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Gosh I miss you guys yet I have nothing much to say. Maybe some...thoughts time? :) Haha, my exams? Long and hectic, but yeah, I've managed to retrieve my sleeping minutes back after finishing my paper. Gosh, my Kyoko Mogami spirit just doesn't meant to be here this year.

Oh well, I'm good. I can see some improvements in my previous trial! :D Hope it stays...I mean, keep improving. Anyhow, I've discovered something awesome.

DANTE JUST GOT A DILDO AND IT'S BLACK OMG BUDDHA SHISUS :O

And:

We ELFs do know one fact: dear SuJu love to harass each other while the other enjoys it ;) Hm, Jealousy series inspi! :D

While THIS, makes me laugh and cry at the same time. Teukie you bitch *grabs tissue paper*

The Smurfs

The Smurfs is like my...no, it's not my childhood, I'll be honest with you. And I gotta say as plain as the storyline is, the whole authenticity that they possess (the fact that they include 'Smurf' into every word and yet they understand what each other mean :/) is unbelievably adorable.

And I just learnt that there's nothing special with 3D :/ That aside, OMG, I know that male cast! (the one from HowIMetYourMother) and when I saw Martin from Project Runway I went like "OMG I KNOW HIM." and when he said his famous phrase make it work I went like "OMFG I KNOW THAT!"

I am that lame.

Anyway! I got really obsessed by their cuteness that I played the game in iPad, preparing to get a Smurfy! plush :) Yes, it's that classic cute :D

Ellie Goulding
My new favourite singer. She has this really unique and original voice that I really adore! I found her when I was watching one of my favourite makeup artist's video. I listened to her 'Believe me' and TapTap Revenge suddenly offered another single from her album, Lights.

Lights is much more of a electronic pop compared to Believe Me. It has a weird flow to the beat. It started out nice and sweet like a fairytale song and all of a sudden, without you realizing it, it became intense like the song is meant to convey misery or revenge or anything scary like that :/

But I guess that's why I like it :D They should so put her as the new MTV Push.

Kara - Step

I take back whatever I have said about Kara - for now. To be really honest with you guys, I hated Mister since the first time I listened to it, Lupin just didn't stick into my head for long and after their major controversy I completely think Nicole is the ugliest. Yeah.

But anyway, after watching this MV, I was completely blown away. I love colourful MV and colourful costumes, and the song is addictive (but let's not talk about whether they imporved:/) . The dance, thank God, is not as slutty as Mister's (butt dancing? That's all the others ever focus on!) even when they were swaying their hips in an unbelievable way. I just hope Hara didn't always need to do the 'yeow!' part. And yes, Nicole is better looking (short hair just shouldn't be her style :/) and Seungyeon looks really lovely!

So yeah! That's all I have to say. Right now, I'm impatiently counting the time when I will be free from school, and not the time to face the life-or-failure exam. Sigh

2011-09-04T18:36:00.002+08:00

In case some of you didn't know, I have a Tumblr. Do visit once in a while :D Because Leena makes sense, blog is too big I feel obliged to out something nice and large and long and big so that it looks...organized.

So, click !

Fake/Monster

2011-09-03T01:30:00.001+08:00

Who's the real fucking monster now huh?
Who's violent now huh?
Who's the one blaming everyone now huh?
Who's the one that thinks she's the best huh?

Oh no, it's not me, sister, no longer. Perhaps you need to reflect on yourself and see who's the real monster.

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You have all your say about me when everyone goes around like 'JohXhin is really impatient...she's selfish...she's violent...she's impulsive...she's rude,' and you, as a sister, who sleeps in the same room as me for like, your whole life, who should know me better than just being ridiculously mean, joined their fun conversation while I silently pretended that I don't really care and bluntly admitted whatever you accused me of. I couldn't say anything because that's the truth, and I'm proud that I didn't behave like you, who made faces like they were wrong, when in reality, what you did was not just wrong, but way passed the limit of it.

You are fake, even. But I guess I could understand you a little because every Libran wants to be loved. But I guess you wanted to be loved too much that you pretended to be an angel in front of everyone. You badmouthed more than I do. You silently complained to me about whatever I have complained in front of the crowd. While I was known for stating what I'm not satisfied with, people didn't realize the real bitch is in her room later that night, retelling the same complaints made to her sister, me. All of it while you agreed to them about me being mean when whatever I confessed is what you want to say.

You fucking accused me of being a bad cousin to the kids when I'm more than sure you'd be complaining about them in the future. You did that once, and I know it better.

And whatever you contributed to the family doesn't give you any right to be giving sour faces at anytime and at anything irrelevant. It was not my fault your fucking bag has to be stuffed with stuffs (and if you think of it, my bag was stuffed more than yours before), it was not my fault that your fucking phone has no battery and worry like a damn shit that we can't find our parents (the truth is, we can easily see them) and it certainly isn't my fault if one day, I give you some fucking lecture like an older sister would, because the truth is, if you don't realize, YOU ARE ACTING LIKE YOU ARE MY OLDER SISTER.

You have to understand that I realized our bond has strengthened over these months and as unbelievable as it sounds, I want it to keep this way. So that is why I restraint myself from yelling at you. I think more rationally on whether I have the right to yell at you when I was sitting on the couch while you do all the babysitting. But I had enough. You take things for granted, you took the advantage. Or you probably don't realize my efforts because in your eyes, I'm a don't-give-a-shit mean sister.

Amitabha sister, may Buddha guides you to the right light and let you see the hideous side of yourself.

From your darling bitch sister.

Cold Little Finger

2011-09-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

I. Can't. Stand. It. Anymore.

I just really can't stand those kids anymore! They make noise everywhere we go (dinner? Alright, no fucking choice. But shopping centre, home, karaoke?) , they watch ecchi animes while miserably attempting to hide it from their parents (what's more, they still watch it and the parents don't do anything) they are fighting for anything at all (they fight for iPad and all of a sudden nobody's interested because one kid has left for SDO) they think everything belongs to theirs when clearly it's ours, they fucking tore my paper (they took my belongings without MY permission...they are so doomed) and they.are.so.fucking.pampered. I feel like dying listening to them talking - or rather, complaining - to their parents about anything and everything and then moved on for crying.

For God's sake, leave me alone.